The Kingz in the building

Da Wanderer continued..chapter 11

2006-06-28T13:49:00.000-07:00

CHAPTER 11

I SAT AT DA GATEZ OF DA CITY AND LOOKED AROUND AT DA WELL SPRING OF LIFE DAT MOVED AROUND DOING THEIR DAILY CHOREZ. DA COMMUNITY CONSISTED OF ABOUT 50 ADULTZ, NOT INCLUDING DA CHILDREN. ALL OF DEM WERE MY FAMILY. IT WAZ A COMMUNITY DAT STARTED WITH MY CHILDREN MARRYING MY CHILDREN AND THEN THEIR CHILDREN MARRYING EACH OTHER UNTIL WE C WHAT IZ HERE 2 DAY.
DA CITY CONSISTED OF ABOUT 20 HOUSEZ, MINE BEING DA BIGGEZT, WITH ENOCH’Z RUNNING A CLOSE 2ND. I DECIDED 2 NAME DA CITY AFTER MY BELOVED SON ENOCH; SO DIZ HAZ BECOME KNOWN AZ DA ‘CITY OF ENOCH’.
IT IZ NOT DA ONLY CITY AROUND. IN DA HUNDRED OR SO YEARZ I’VE BEEN HERE DERE HAZ BEEN OTHER CITIEZ BUILT. DERE WAZ DA 1ST CITY, DA CITY DAT ADAM BUILT; AND OF COURZE DERE WAZ DA OTHER SMALLER OFFSHOOTZ DAT HIZ DESCENDANTZ BUILT. DA BIGGEZT 1 WAZ DA 1 HIZ SON DAT IZ CONSIDERED HIZ 1ST BORN BUILT, ‘DA CITY OF SETH’.
SETH WAZ BORN NOT 2 LONG AFTER I LEFT. IT IZ SAID DAT HE WAZ NAMED DIZ IN REFERENZE 2 YHWH APPOINTING MY MOTHER ANOTHER IN DA STEAD OF ABEL WHOM I SLEW.
YHWH APPOINTED ANOTHER 1, NOT ‘DA VOICE’ BUT YHWH. U C, AFTER SETH HAD A SON WHOZE NAME IF I RECALL WAZ ENOS, PEOPLE STOPPED REFERRING 2 DA VOICE AZ ‘DA VOICE’ BUT AZ YHWH. WHERE DAT NAME CAME FROM I CAN’T REALLY TELL U, BUT IT IZ SAID DAT WHEN COMMUNING WITH ADAM AND HIZ OFFSPRING HE TOLD DEM DAT WAZ HIZ NAME.
IT WOULD MAKE SENSE DAT HE WOULD HAVE A NAME, SINCE EVERYTHING HAZ A NAME. WE ALWAYZ REFERRED 2 HIM AZ ‘DA VOICE’ BECUZ DAT IZ DA ONLY DING WE COULD IDENTIFY HIM WITH. FROM WHAT I WAZ TOLD UNTO UZ BY ADAM, DA VOICE HAD NO FORM, AT LEAZT NOTHING WE COULD COMREPHEND; SO WHEN DEALING WITH YHWH ALL WE KNEW OFF WAZ A VOICE, THUZ DA NAME WE CALLED HIM ‘DA VOICE’.
WHEN I LOOK BACK DEN I C DAT ADAMZ SEED STARTING 2 CALL UPON DA NAME YHWH COINCIDED PERFECTLY WITH DA ASPECT OF ‘GOD’. U C, SOME OF MY OFFSPRING AZ ALL MEN, BEGIN 2 QUESTION THEIR EXIZTENZE. DEY BEGIN 2 WANT 2 KNOW ABOUT DAT WHICH WAZ GREATER DEN DEM. SINZE MY EXPULSION FROM MY FAMILY I HAVE HAD NO CONTACT WITH YHWH, NOR HAVE HE DEALT WITH MY LINE LIKE DAT. EVERY NOW AND DEN SOME 1 FROM MY GENERATION WOULD HAVE AN EXPERIENZE DAT WOULD B SIMILAR 2 WHAT I REMEMBERED OF ‘DA VOICE’, YHWH DEALING WITH ME, BUT IT WOULD NOT B QUITE AZ INTENZE. BUT IN GENERAL YHWH DID NOT DEAL WITH MY LINE, SO WE HAD NO REAL KNOWLEDGE OF HIM, OR NO REAL DEALINGZ WITH HIM.
MEN FROM MY LINE WOULD BEGIN TALKING, SINCE DEY KNEW HE WAZ SOMETHING GREATER DEN DEM, ABOUT WHO DIZ ‘VOICE’ WAZ, AND WHAT I TOLD DEM ABOUT HIM. I RARELY SPOKE OF ‘DA VOICE’, YHWH, SINCE I FELT SHAME WHEN THINKING ABOUT HIM. AND BESIDEZ, I ONLY KNEW DA LITTLE OF WHAT I WAZ TAUGHT AZ A PUPIL 2 ADAM, WHEN HE ‘WAZ’ MY FATHER. ANYTHING ELZE I HAVE LEARNED THROUGH MY LIFE ABOUT HIM HAZ BEEN SPECULATIONZ OR HEARSAY, OR THROUGH WISDOM OF LIFE.
DEZ MEN BEGIN 2 SPECULATE ABOUT WHO HE, ‘DA VOICE’ WAZ. WHAT ‘DA VOICE’ WAZ, AND y HE HAVEN’T DEY EVER HEARD ‘DA VOICE’. DEY BEGIN 2 QUESTION DA THINGZ I TAUGHT DEM ABOUT ‘DA VOICE’. DEY FELT IF DIZ VOICE CREATED ALL, DEN Y DID HE NOT DEAL WITH DEM LIKE HE DEALT WITH ADAMZ SEED. DEY FELT SURELY DA CREATOR OF ALL WOULD DEAL WITH ALL. I KNEW DIZ WAZ NOT TRUE. I KNEW DAT HE WOULD DEAL WITH DOZ WHOM HE WOULD DEAL WITH; DOZ DAT DID NOT DIZPLEAZE HIM. FROM WHAT I REMEMBERED ABOUT ‘DA VOICE’, OR YHWH, I KNEW DAT HE DID NOT DEAL WITH EVIL, AND WICKEDNEZZ. I KNEW SAT HE DID NOT LOVE ALL AND ANYTHING, AND DAT HE SHOWERED BLEZZINGZ ON DOZ WHO WOULD PLEAZE HIM, AND WOULD PUNISH DOZ WHO DIDN’T.
DEZ MEN DID NOT AGREE, DEY FELT ‘DA VOICE’ HAD DEALT WITH DEM LIKE HE DEALT WITH EVERY 1 ELZE. DEY WOULD TELL ME DAT ‘DA VOICE’ AZ I KNEW HIM WAZ 4 DAT TIME WHEN MEN JUZT BEGUN, AND DEY NEEDED INSTRUCTIONZ. DEY BELIEVED DAT HE DEALT WITH UZ DIFFERENTLY SINZE WE DID NOT HAVE DA SAME NEEDZ AZ WE DID ‘IN DA BEGINNING’. DIZ WAZ WHEN DEY BEGIN 2 FORMULATE DIFFERENT NOTIONZ, AND OPINIONZ ON DA FORM HE NOW DEALT WITH UZ IN. DEY HAD MANY DIFFERENT SPECULATIONZ AND IDEAZ, AND WITH DAT CAME WHAT WE NOW CALL ‘GOD’.
‘GOD 2 DEM, TRANZLATED IN 2 DA FORM ‘DA VOICE’ NOW DEALT WITH UZ IN. SO SINZE DERE WERE VARYING OPINIONZ OF DIZ, DERE BECAME A NUMBER OF DIFFERENT ‘GODZ’. EACH MAN WOULD DETERMINE WHAT HE FELT WOULD HAVE 2 B DA GUIDING HAND OF ‘GOD’, AND DEN GIVE HIM A NAME. DEY WOULD DEN DETERMINE DA BEZT WAY 2 DEAL WITH ‘GOD’ ACCORDING 2 WHAT FORM DEY FELT THEIR ‘GOD’ DEALT WITH DEM.
DERE WAZ DOZ WHO FELT SINZE MAN NEEDED DA SUN 2 SURVIVE, AND IT PROVIDED WARMTH, LIGHT, AND NOURISHED DERE CROPZ DAT DIZ MUZT BE DA NEW FORM OF ‘DA VOICE’. DEY WOULD WORSHIP IT BY SETTING FIREZ IN HOMAGE 2 DA WARMTH IT GAVE. DERE WOULD DOZ WHO LOOKED TOWARDZ DA BIRDZ AND DETERMINED SINZE DEY COULD DO DAT WHICH NO MAN COULD EVER ACHIEVE AND HOW IT TOOK CARE OF ITZ YOUNG DAT DIZ MUZT B DA SMALLER VERSION OF ‘DA VOICE’, AND SO DEY BEGIN 2 WORSHIP BIRDZ. AZ TIME PASSED; DERE BECAME MANY DIFFERENT ‘GODZ’ WITH MANY DIFFERENT NAMEZ, AND MANY DIFFERENT WAYZ OF PLEAZING DEZ ‘GODZ’.
OVER TIME PEOPLE BEGIN 2 MAKE IMAGEZ OF DEZ GODZ. WHATEVER THEIR IMAGINATIONZ COULD DEPICT AZ DA VISAGE OF ‘GOD’, DAT IZ WHAT DEY MADE. DERE WAZ DA BIRD IDOLZ, SUN IDOLZ, HALF MAN AND HALF ANIMALZ IDOLZ, AND DERE WERE EVEN IDOLZ OF MEN.
ADAMZ SEED CALLED UPON DA NAME OF YHWH AND DEY MADE NO IMAGEZ OF HIM. DIZ WAZ DA NAME HE GAVE DEM, AND DEY FOLLOWED HIM BY DA RULEZ HE GAVE UNTO DEM. DIZ IZ WHAT HAZ ALWAYZ MADE SENZE 2 ME. WHAT WOULD NOT B MORE PLEAZING 2 GOD EXCEPT DAT WHICH HE TOLD DEM OF? I WOULD EXPLAIN DIZ 2 MY SEED, DA MEN WHOU WOULD WORSHIP DERE ‘GODZ’. BUT DEY WOULD NOT LISTEN 2 ME. DEY WOULD TELL ME DAT DEY COULD C DERE ‘GODZ’AND DAT DEY COULD FEEL DERE ‘GODZ’. DEY WOULD SAY DAT DEY HAVE NEVER HEARD NOR SEEN DIZ ‘VOICE’, AND DAT IF HE WAZ REAL WOULD HE NOT REVEAL HIMSELF.
NO, DEY WOULD STICK 2 DERE IDOLZ. DEY WOULD BOW 2 DEZ THINGZ MADE OF WOOD AND STONE. DEY WOULD SET FOOD B4 DEM DAT DEY WOULD LATER COME AND PICK UP. WHEN I WOULD APPROACH DEM WITH DIZ PIEZE OF LOGIC, DEY WOULD SAY ‘WHETHER HE ACCEPTZ IT ON NOT, EATZ DA FOOD OR NOT, IT IZ OUR JOB 2 OFFER IT 2 HIM’. DEY WOULD TELL ME DAT I OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW DAT JUST BECUZ U OFFER IT DAT DOESN’T MEAN IT WOULD B ACCEPTED. I WOULD ASK DEM IF DEY HAVE ‘EVER’ SEEN IT ACCEPTED BY ANY 1 ANY TIME. DEY WOULD ‘ALWAYZ’ ANSWER ‘NO’, BUT DAT DEY WOULD CONTINUE 2 OFFER UNTIL IT WAZ ACCEPTED. NOTHING I SAID WOULD CHANGE DERE MINDZ NO MATTER HOW MUCH SENSE IT MADE. AZ LONG AZ DEY WERE DETERMINED DAT DEZ THINGZ WERE ‘GOD’ DEY WOULD OFFER.
YEZ, DA NAME OF YHWH IN DA EARTH AND DA NAMEZ AND CREATIONZ OF ALL DEZ ‘GODZ’ PERFECTLY COINCIDED. I GUEZZ DIZ WAZ YHWH’Z WAY OF DISTINGUISHING HIMSELF BETWEEN DA ‘GODZ’ IN DA EARTH.
DIZ IZ WHAT I HAD IN MY CITY, BUT IT WAZ MY HOME. DIZ WAZ MY FAMILY WHOM I LOVED. I NEVER SEEN ANY OF DEZ OTHER CITIEZ, AND I RARELY CAME ACROZZ ANY OF ADAMZ SEED THROUGH SETH. EVERY NOW AND DEN, IN MY WANDERINGZ I WOULD COME ACROZZ I WOULD COME ACROSS 1 OF DEM AND DEY WOULD REFER 2 ME AZ DA 1 WHO SLEW HIZ BROTHER, BUT BECUZ OF DA MARK UPON ME DAT YHWH PLACED UPON ME, DEY WOULD CONTINUE ON DERE WAY. I COULD ALWAYZ C DAT SAME LOOK DAT WAZ IN ADAM’Z EYEZ WHEN DEY LOOKED AT ME, BUT DEY KNEW DA CURZE AND WOULD CONTINUE 2 GO ABOUT DERE BUSINEZZ.
OUR LINEZ BARELY MIXED, AND IT WAZN’T UNTIL AFTER I LEFT DA VILLAGE DAT DEY STARTED 2 INTERMARRY.
ENOCH WAZ NOW A HUNDRED AND HAD A COUPLE OF CHILDREN OF HIZ OWN BY NOW. HIZ 1ST BORN, IRAD, WAZ MY FIRZT SON OF MY SON. HE REMINDED ME SO MUCH OF ENOCH AZ A CHILD. HE WAZ JUZT ANOTHER VERSION OF ENOCH, JUST YOUNGER AND SMALLER. HE HAD A WARRIORZ SPIRIT. IT WAZ HIM WHO STOOD BY MY SIDE ON DA OCCASION 2 OF SETHZ LINE ENTERED DA CITY, AND 1 OF DEM WANTED 2 SLAY ME.
IT WAZ MANY YEARZ LATER AND YET DEY WANTED 2 STILL DESTROY ME. DEY STILL HATED ME. IN MY YEARZ I HAVE REALIZED DAT DA EMOTIONZ DAT COME WITH DA TAKING OF LIFE NEVER DISSIPATE. I HAVE SEEN FAMILY MEMBERZ OF SLAIN MEN CHAZE MEN FOR 60 AND 70 YEARZ UNTIL DEY EXACTED THEIR REVENGE. WE BEGIN 2 REFER 2 DOZ MEN AZ DA ‘AVENGER OF BLOOD’. DEZ AVENGERZ OF BLOOD, SOLE MISSION WAZ 2 HUNT DOWN DOZ WHO TOOK DA LIFE OF DERE FAMILY OR CLOZE FRIENDZ. DEZ MEN WILL CROZZ GREAT DISTANCEZ, AND WILL NEVER GIVE UP! IT IZ RARE DAT DEZ MEN DON’T GET DA PERSON DEY R AFTER. WITH DA PASSION 4 REVENGE, AND RAGE DRIVING DEM DA 1 RUNNING BARELY STANDZ A CHANCE AGAINZT HIZ PURSUER. ALSO WITH NO PLACE 2 GO, DA AVENGER OF BLOOD WILL USUALLY OVERTAKE DEM AND SLAY DEM.
DERE R EVEN TIMEZ WHEN 1 MAY SLAY A MAN BY ACCIDENT, BUT DIZ INFORMATION WILL NOT STOP DA AVENGER OF BLOOD, SINZE ALL HE KNOWZ IS ‘MY FAMILY IZ NOT HERE ANYMORE AND U R’.
WELL DEZ 2 OUT OF DA LINE OF SETH WERE PASSING BY AND STOPPED IN DA CITY 2 ACQUIRE SOME PROVISIONZ AND AZ DA ELDER OF DA VILLAGE I WENT 2 GREET DEM. AZ SOON AZ DEY SAW DA MARK DEY KNEW WHO I WAZ AND BECOME INFURIATED. DEY BEGIN 2 REFER 2 ME AZ ‘DA 1 WHO SLEW HIZ BROTHER, DA FORGOTTEN 1’ AND AZ ‘CAIN DA MAN SLAYER’. 1 OF DEM DREW HIZ CUTTING KNIFE, POISED 2 ATTACK. DAT IZ WHEN IRAD JUMPED AHEAD OF ME WITH A SPEAR USED 2 DEFEND AGAINZT WILD PREDATORZ. DA OTHER, OBVIOUSLY DA ELDER REMINDED HIM OF DA CURZE AGAINZT 1 WHO WOULD SLAY ME, AND TOLD HIM NOT 2 WORRY ABOUT IT SINZE YHWH HAD ALREADY DEALTH WITH ME. HE TOLD HIM DAT MY LIFE WOULD B A TESTAMENT AND PUNISHMENT 2 WHAT I HAD DONE. DA OTHER RELUCTANTLY PUT HIZ KNIFE AWAY, AND DEY TURNED AND DEPARTED, NOT SPEAKING 2 ANY 1 ELSE, WEARING AN APPARENT LOOK OF DISDAIN IN THEIR FACEZ.
OVER DA YEARZ I WOULD RUN ACROZZ DOZ FROM DA LINE OF SETH, AND DA REACTION WOULD ALWAYZ B DA SAME ONCE DEY REALIZED WHO I WAZ. DA FEAR OF DA WORDZ SPOKEN BY YHWH WOULD ALWAYZ RESTRAIN DEM FROM TRYING 2 HARM ME, BUT U COULD ALWAYZ C IN DERE FACEZ DAT DEY WANTED 2. 4 DA REMAINING TIME I WAZ IN DA CITY WE NEVER HAD ANOTHER VISIT FROM ANY 1 OF DA LINE OF SETH. AFTER DAT WE THOUGHT IT WIZE 2 BUILD A WALL AROUND DA CITY, JUST IN CASE.
IT WAZ REALLY JUST A LITTLE FENZE MADE OUT OF STICKZ AND ROPE AT 1ST, BUT AZ TIME WENT BY IT EVOLVED IN 2 A WALL WITH A GATE FOR DA ENTRANCE. DIZ WOULD KEEP ANY UNWELCOME GUEZT OUT, SUCH AZ PREDATORZ…OR PEOPLE!
I LOVED DIZ PLACE, DIZ CITY OF ENOCH. I NEVER FATHOMED I WOULD B HERE DIZ LONG. DIZ WAZ DA LONGEZT I EVER STAYED AT 1 PLAZE IN MY LIFE. 4 SOME REASON ‘DA VOICE’ MEANT 4 ME 2 STAY HERE AND BUILD A CITY, 4 AFTER I LEFT DA CITY I WOULD BE AT PLACEZ 4 A YEAR, SOME MONTHZ, OR MAYBE 2 YEARZ DA MOST.
WHEN I LOOKED AT CAINENAH I WOULD FEEL SO HAPPY AND PROUD. I NEVER SEEN HER SO HAPPY. ON DAY DAT WE LEFT DA VILLAGE, I THOUGHT SHE WOULD NEVER B TRULY HAPPY AGAIN, AND OF COURZE I BLAMED MYSELF. I GUEZZ DAT IZ Y WHEN IT WAZ TIME 4 ME 2 LEAVE DIZ PLACE I INSISTED SHE STAY. SHE DID NOT LISTEN 2 ME, THOUGH SHE WAZ AZ BROKEN UP AT LEAVING DA CITY OF ENOCH AZ SHE WAZ AT LEAVING ADAM’Z VILLAGE. BUT UP UNTIL DAT DAY, SHE WAZ CONSTANTLY HAPPY.
SHE WOULD TEACH DA WOMEN AND DA GIRLZ OF DA CITY, DA THINGZ SHE LEARNED WHEN SHE LIVED IN ADAMZ VILLAGE. THOUGH I COULD C DA HURT WHENEVER SHE REFERRED 2 MOTHER EVE, IT WASN’T DA SAME HURT LIKE WHEN WE FIRST LEFT DA VILLAGE. DA PAIN SHE FELT WAZ NOT DAT PAIN OF DA 1ST YEAR. NO IT SEEMED LIKED TIME HEALED HER EMOTIONAL WOUNDZ. I GUEZZ DA PAIN DAT WE FELT WHEN WE LEFT WAZ RESERVED 4 ME. DA EXACT MEMORY WITHOUT EVEN DA SLIGHTEZT DETAIL MARRED STAY WITH ME. LIKE MOST MEMORIEZ OVER TIME FADED, MINEZ DIDN’T, YEZ DIZ WAZ MY BURDEN AND MY BURDEN ALONE. IT WAZ DIZ FACT OF HER EMOTIONAL HEALING DAT GAVE ME DA UNDERSTANDING OF MY PLIGHT. IT WAZ MY WATCHING AND NOTICING DAT WITH EVERYBODY ELSE TIME REMOVED SOME OF DA STING OF PAINFUL MEMORIEZ, BUT NOT SO WITH ME.
YEZ I LOVED DIZ PLACE, AND I WOULD SPEND ANOTHER HUNDRED YEARZ HERE B4 I WOULD B FORCED 2 MOVE ON, OR DESTROY DAT WHICH I WORKED SO HARD 2 BUILD. IT WOULD B ANOTHER HUNDRED YEARZ UNTIL I WOULD B FORCED 2 LEAVE MY SON WHOM I SO DAILY LOVED AND MY FAMILY. IT WOULD B ANOTHER HUNDRED YEARZ UNTIL I WAZ FORCED 2 DEAL ONCE AGAIN WITH DA RAMIFICATIONZ OF WHAT I HAD DONE, UNTIL I WOULD HAVE 2 COME 2 DA REALIZATION DAT DA CURZE WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME, AND DAT I WOULD NEVER TRULY KNOW PEAZE.
MY EXIXTENZE HERE DID BRING ME SOME SOLACE, BUT NOT COMPLETE PEACE. EVERY NOW AND DEN I WOULD HAVE DA DREAMZ. I WOULD HAVE DA DREAMZ DAT WOULD BRING ME BACK 2 DA DAY I SLEW MY BROTHER ABEL. DA DREAMZ WHERE MY FATHER WOULD DISOWN ME WITH DAT LOOK OF DISGUZT AND HATRED IN HIZ EYEZ. AND EVERY TIME I WOULD HAVE DA DREAMZ I WOULD FEEL DA EXACT SAME WAY I FELT ON DAT DAY. DERE WOULD B NO DIZCREPANCIEZ AT ALL WITH DA DREAMZ OR DA EMOTIONZ. SO ALL I WAZ DOING WAZ BUYING TIME UNTIL IT WAZ TIME 4 ME 2 LEAVE; SINZE I KNEW IT WAZ INEVITABLE. I KNEW SOME DAY DA FAMINE WOULD COME. I KNEW DA DROUGHT, AND DA STORM WOULD COME, SO I NEVER MENTALLY PREPARED 2 STAY.
WHEN CAINENAH WOULD TALK ABOUT PLANNING ON DOING DIZ OR DAT, OR WOULD SAY SHE COULDN’T WAIT 2 C SUCH AND SUCH BRING 4TH NEW LIFE, I WOULD JUZT SMILE AND NOD. I PLANNED NOTHING; I KNEW DAT DA STORM COULD COME AT ANY TIME, AND DERE WOULD B NOTHING I COULD DO ABOUT IT. I KNEW DAT IT WOULD COME 1 OF DEZ DAYZ, AND DAT GETTING MYSELF ATTACHED WOULD NOT B GOOD. SO I JUST LIVED 1 DAY AT A TIME AND WAITED. I WAITED ON DAT DAY I WOULD FACE MY FAMILY 4 DA LAST TIME.
ONCE A YEAR WE WOULD ALL MEET IN DA MEETING PLACE AND I WOULD RETELL DA STORY OF DA DAY I SLEW MY BROTHER ABEL, DA DAY I WOULD NO LONGER HER DA VOICE OF YHWH. I WOULD TELL IT IN HOPEZ DAT IT WOULD PREVENT 1 OF DEM FROM MAKING DA SAME MISTAKE, AND DAT DEY WOULD B MORE PREPARED 4 DA DAY I WOULD HAVE 2 DEPART.
CAINENAH WOULD NEVER ATTEND DEZ MEETINGZ. I GUEZZ SHE DID NOT WANT 2 THINK ABOUT LEAVING BEHIND WHAT SHE THOUGHT OF AZ HER HOME. I NEVER INSISTED SHE COME, ALL THOUGH I SAW NO PURPOSE 4 HER NOT 2 COME. U C, I DECIDED ABOUT DA TIME I COULD C ENOCH WOULD B ABLE 2 TAKE CARE OF HER AND DA REST OF DA FAMILY DAT I WOULD LEAVE ALONE. I WOULD NOT FORCE HER 2 BEAR MY BURDEN WITH ME; OF COURZE WHEN DA TIME CAME SHE WOULD HAVE NONE OF IT, BUT AT DAT TIME DIZ WAZ MY PLAN.
ACTUALLY DIZ WAZ NOT ANY OF THEIR PLANZ AT FIRST. ENOCH WOULD ALWAYZ STAND UP IN DEZ MEETINGZ AND SAY DAT ‘WE R FAMILY AND WHERE 1 GOEZ WE WILL ALL GO’. HE WOULD TELL ME DAT WHEN IT WAZ TIME FOR ME 2 MIGRATE DAT DA WHOLE TRIBE WOULD GO ALSO. I ALWAYZ TOLD DEM DAT DIZ WAZ NOT 2 B. I TOLD DEM DIZ WAZ MY PUNISHMENT AND DAT I MUST BEAR IT ALONE. I WOULD SAY DAT IF DEY WANTED 2 HONER ME AND MAKE ME HAPPY DAY DEY SHOULD STAY HERE AND BECOME A GREAT FAMILY. I TOLD DEM 2 MAKE SURE DA FAMILY STAYED 2GETHER NO MATTER WHAT.
OVER TIME AZ DA FAMILY BECAME BIGGER AND DA CITY BECOME MORE ESTABLISHED ENOCH WOULD NO LONGER INSIST DURING DA YEARLY MEETING DAT WE WOULD ALL LEAVE 2GETHER. HE WOULD SIMPLY INSIST DAT MAYBE I WOULD NOT HAVE 2 LEAVE, AND DAT I WOULD B ABLE 2 STAY HERE. I WOULD SAY MAYBE JUST 2 CEASE WITH DA CONVERSATION, BUT I KNEW DIFFERENTLY. DA DREAMZ WOULD NOT HAVE ME 2 BELIEVE ANYTHING ELSE.

Da Wanderer continued..chapterz 9, 10

2006-06-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

CHAPTER 9

OUR SON WAZ BORN IN DA DEAD SEASON. WE WERE AZ PREPARED AZ WE WERE GOING 2 GET BY DA TIME HE ARRIVED. OUR SHELTER WAZ STABLE, AND A GOOD PROTECTOR AGAINST DA ELEMENTZ. WE STACKED PLENTY OF FIRE WOOD 4 DA DEAD SEASON. MY HARVEZT YIELDED ENOUGH FOOD FOR A FAMILY OF 3, EVEN THOUGH I PLANTED ENOUGH 4 8.
IT WAZ A GOOD THING WE PREPARED 4 DA DEAD SEASON EARLY. IT SEEMED LIKE DA DEAD SEASON WAZ A LOT WORZE DEN I RECALLED. BUT BY NOW DIZ WAZ OF NO SURPRIZE 2 ME. I KNEW DAT AZ LONG AZ I LIVED EVERYTHING WOULD B AGAINZT ME. I KNEW DAT EVERYTHING WOULD B WORZE 4 ME DEN I REMEMBERED.
IT RAINED A LOT, AND WAZ A LOT WINDIER DEN WE WERE ACCUSTOMED 2. WE HAD PLENTY OF EXTRA COTTON 2 MAKE EXTRA AND THICKER GARMENTZ. MOZT OF DA FOOD WE ATE WAZ DRIED, SINZE MOZT EVERYTHING DIED.
WHEN WE WERE IN DA VILLAGE THINGZ WOULD ALZO DIE AROUND DIZ SEASON, AND WE WOULD RELY ON DA DRIED FOODZ; BUT THERE WERE ALWAYZ TREEZ DAT YIELDED THEIR FRUIT. DEY WERE FOREVER GREEN, AND THEIR FOLIAGE DID NOT CHANGE COLOR AND DIE. SO WE WERE ALWAYZ ABLE 2 PARTAKE OF JUICY, SUCCULENT FRUITZ AND VEGETABLEZ.
IT WAZ NOT LIKE DAT WIT UZ. EVERYTHING DIED OR WAZ EATEN BY DA ANIMALZ OF DA FIELDZ. NEVERTHELEZZ, WE HAD PLENTY STORIED DRIED FRUITZ, NUTZ, AND VEGETABLEZ. DEY WEREN’T AZ TASTY BUT DEY DID DA JOB; BESIDEZ WE BARELY HAD TIME 2 NOTICE SINZE WE WERE SO PREOCCUPIED WITH DA BIRTH OF OUR SON.
WE NAMED OUR SON ENOCH. HE WAZ BEAUTIFUL. FROM DA MOMENT I SAW HIM I WAZ OVERCOME WITH A FEELING OF PURE BLIZZ. IT WAZ ALMOZT LIKE DA FEELING I UZE 2 HAVE WHEN I COMMUNED WITH DA VOICE. IT IZ HARD 2 DESCRIBE IT. I JUZT THOUGHT DAT HERE WAZ NEW LIFE AND I HAD CREATED IT. I KNEW DAT IT WAZ PRECIOUZ, AND IT NEEDED UZ 2 PROTECT IT.
WHEN I LOOK BACK NOW I THINK ENOCH MEANT SO MUCH 2 ME BECUZ I KNEW I WAZ NOT ALTOGETHER FORGOTTEN BY DA VOICE. I KNEW DIZ WAZ A BLEZZING FROM HIM, AND I WAZ HAPPY DAT HE DID NOT UTTERLY DIZDAIN ME.
DESPITE ALL DAT HAZ HAPPENED 2 ME, AND DESPITE BEING MOVED FROM DA FACE OF DA VOICE, I STILL HELD ON HAPE DAT I COULD STILL RECEIVE FAVOR FROM DA VOICE. I HELD ON HOPE DAT HE WOULD NOT COMPLETELY TURN HIZ BACK ON ME, AND DIZ WAZ MY SIGN. DIZ WAZ MY INDICATION DAT DA VOICE WAZ TRULY MERCIFUL, BUT AZ ADAM TOLD UZ, BY NO MEANZ WOULD HE LET DA GUILTY B FREE OF PUNISHMENT. I WAZ PUNISHED, BUY MY PUNISHMENT WAZ A MERCIFUL 1. I DESERVED DEATH, BUT DA VOICE DID NOT DESTROY ME. HE LET ME LIVE. HE LET ME LIVE PHYSICALLY, AND HE LET ME LIVE THROUGH MY SON, MY SPECIAL GIFT OF LIFE.
I NEVER DOUBTED 4 A MINUTE DAT MY SON BEING BORN WAZ AN ACT OF DA VOICE. ADAM TAUGHT UZ DAT THOUGH MAN HAZ DA LIFE FORZE INSIDE OF HIM, IT IZ BECUZ OF DA BLEZZINGZ OF DA VOICE DAT IT IZ ALLOWED 2 SPRING 4TH. HE TOLD UZ DAT LIFE WAZ A BLEZZING IN ITSELF, AND DAT 2 B ABLE 2 BRING 4TH LIFE WAZ 1 OF DA BIGGEZT BLEZZINGZ DA VOICE COULD BESTOW UPON U. HE TOLD UZ DAT CHILDREN WERE GIFTZ FROM DA VOICE AND DAT DIZ WAZ NOW DA ONLY WAY A MAN COULD LIVE 4 EVER IN DA EARTH. DAT IF DA VOICE WAZ TRULY AGAINZT U, U WOULD NOT B PERMITTED 2 BRING 4TH LIFE; THEREBY BEING CUT-OFF IN DA EARTH.
IN TIME, CAINENAH WOULD BE GRANTED DA BLEZZING OF BEARING CHILDREN MANY MORE TIMEZ, AND I WOULD LOVE DEM ALL; BUT WHEN IT CAME 2 ENOCH, I FELT A DIFFERENT LOVE 4 HIM. I FELT LIKE I WOULD SACRIFICE DA WORLD 4 HIM. THERE WAZ NOTHING HE COULD NOT HAVE DAT WAZ IN MY POWER 2 GIVE HIM.
Y DID I FEEL DIZ WAY 4 HIM AND NOT DA OTHERZ? I CANNOT ANSWER 4 I DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT MYSELF; BUT AZ I LIVED ON I CAME 2 DA UNDERSTANDING DAT DIZ WAZ A NATURAL PHENOMENON 4 MEN. IT SEEMED DAT ALL MEN GRAVITATED 2 DERE 1ST BORN SON MORE DEN ANY OF DA OTHER OFFSPRING. DERE WAZ SOMETHING ABOUT UR 1ST BORN SON DAT WAZ SPECIAL.
IN TIME IT WOULD BECOME COMMON PRACTIZE 2 LEAVE DA 1ST BORN SON MORE DEN U LEFT DA OTHER CHILDREN AFTER UR DEMIZE. HE WAZ ENTITLED 2 BIGGER PORTIONZ DEN DA REZT OF DA CHILDREN OF EVERYTHING. WHEN DA FATHER DIED, DA 1ST BORN WOULD B DA 1 IN POWER, BUT HE ALSO HAD 2 ASSUME ALL DA RESPONSIBILITIEZ OF DA FATHER. IT BECAME HIZ JOB 2 TAKE CARE OF DA FAMILY. HE HAD 2 MAKE SURE DEY WERE WELL PROVIDED 4, AND PROTECTED.
DIZ WOULD B ENOCHZ JOB IN DA EVENT SOMEHTHING WAZ 2 HAPPEN 2 ME. HE WOULD UNDERSTAND DIZ FROM DA MANY PRIVATE LEZZONZ HE WOULD RECEIVE DAT NONE OF DA OTHERZ WERE PRIVY 2.
WHEN I LOOKED AT HIM, ENOCH, I COULD C SO MUCH OF MYSELF IN HIM. HE SEEMED 2 B MY BEZT QUEALITIEZ AT A HIGHER LEVEL. HE WAZ AN IMPROVED COPY OF MYSELF. ALL MY OTHER SONZ DID NOT SEEM 2 POSSEZZ ALL DA QUALITIEZ DAT ENOCH POSSEZZED. I WOULD C DIFFERENTZ PARTZ OF MYSELF IN THEM ALL. I WOULD C MY TEMPER IN 1, MY STRENGTH IN ANOTHER, OR MY TALENTZ TILLING DA FIELD IN ANOTHER, BUT ENOCH SEEMED 2 POSSEZZ DEM ALL. IT WAZ AZ IF HE WAZ DA BEGINNING OF MY STRENGTH, AND I LOVED HIM ALL DA MORE SO 4 IT.
I WONDERED IF DAT IZ DA WAY ADAM FELT 4 ME? DID HE THINK I WAZ A BETTER VERSION OF HIMSELF? WOULD HE HAVE GIVEN ME MORE DEN ALL DA OTHER CHILDREN? DEZ WERE QUESTIONZ I WOULD NEVER FIND DA ANSWER 2. ONLY THINK I KNEW 4 CERTAIN WAZ DAT WHATEVER HAD BEEN HIZ PREVIOUZ FEELINGZ 4 ME, DEY WERE DEAD NOW. DEY WAS AZ DEAD AZ ABELZ LIFELEZZ BODY DAT I LEFT IN DA FIELD. HIZ LOVE 4 ME DIED DA SAME DAY I SLEW ABEL, DA SAME DAY I BECAME DEAD 2 HIM ALSO!
NO MATTER HOW MUCH TIME PASSED, NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMEZ I WOULD MOVE, DA PAIN NEVER DIMINISHED. I NEVER STOPPED LONGING 4 ADAMZ LOVE, 4 MY MOTHERZ COMFORT. EVERY TIME I THOUGHT ABOUT IT, DA PAIN WAZ AZ FRESH AZ IT HAD BEEN ON DA DAY DAT I SAW DA FIRE OF DAMNATION IN ADAM’Z EYEZ. IN MY OLD AGE I STILL HAD TEARZ THINKING OF DAT DAY, DA DAY DAT WOULD HAUNT ME 2 DA DAY I WOULD B NO MORE.
I TRIED 2 IMAGINE IF I COULD EVER FEEL 4 ENOCH DA WAY MY FA…ADAM NOW FELT 4 ME. I COULD NOT CONCEIVE OF IT. BUT I WOULD THINK OF SOME 1 TAKING ENOCH FROM ME, AND I WOULD FEEL A SORROW DAT COULD ONLY B COMPARED 2 DA SORROW OF DA LOSS OF MY FAMILY. I KNEW DAT IF 1 OF MY OTHER CHILDREN WERE 2 TAKE ENOCH’Z LIFE I WOULD FEEL LIKE…. WELL I WOULD FEEL 4 HIM WHAT ADAM NOW FELT 4 ME.

CHAPTER 10

‘MY SON.’ CAIN SAID SITTING ON A ROCK IN DA MIDDLE OF DA GRASSY PLAIN. HE WAZ TALKING 2 HIZ 1ST BORN ENOCH; WHO WAZ NOW 16 YEARZ OF AGE. ENOCH WAZ ABOUT 5’11 AND ABOUT 170 POUNDZ. HE WAZ WELL DEVELOPED FROM DA MANY YEARZ OF TILLING DA EARTH WITH HIZ FATHER. DAT TYPE OF WORK REQUIRED HEAVY LIFTING AND STRENUOUZ LABOR, WHICH GAVE ENOCH A WELL TONED BODY LIKE HIZ FATHER.
‘YEZ MY FATHER.’ ENOCH REPLIED STANDING NEXT 2 HIZ FATHER.
‘WHAT HAVE I TOLD U ABOUT ATTACKING UR BROTHERZ.’
‘U TOLD ME FAMILY MUZT STICK TOGETHER, AND DAT DA ONLY TIME 1 SHOULD FIGHT IZ IF HE IS DEFENDING HIMSELF OR HZI FAMILY.’ ENOCH ANSWERED LOOKING AT DA GROUND NOT WANTING 2 CATCH HIZ FATHERZ GAZE. ‘BUT I COULDN’T HELP IT FATHER!’ HE SAID SUDDENLY LOOKING UP AT HIZ FATHER. ‘I TOLD HIM 2 DO SOMETHING AND HE WAZ TAKING HIZ TIME ABOUT IT. HE KNOWZ I AM DA ELDER SON, THEREFORE HE MUST SHOW ME RESPECT.’ ENOCH SAID WITH A FIRE IN HIZ EYE DAT CAIN RECOGNIZED. CAIN HAD NOTICED DAT LOOK OF ANGER, AND PASSION IN HIZ SON’Z EYEZ SINZE HE WAZ ABOUT 6 YEARZ OLD WHEN HE WOULD FIGHT WITH HIZ SIBLINGZ ABOUT LITTLE THINGZ. CAIN RECOGNIZED IT AZ DA SAME FIRE HE ONCE HAD ON DAT FAITHFUL DAY, AND TRIED FROM DAT DAY FORWARD 2 STEER ENOCH AWAY FROM IT. HE WOULD CONSTANTLY GIVE ENOCH TALKZ ON ANGER, AND LEARNING 2 CONTROL 1’SELF. BUT WHENEVER ENOCH WOULD GET ANGRY HE WOULD C IT, AND DEN DA LACK OF SELF CONTROL WOULD KICK IN.
‘YEZ, U R DA ELDER SON, AND AZ DA ELDER SON I EXPECT U 2 SHOW A LITTLE MORE SELF CONTROL DEN U DEMONSTRATED. AZ I TOLD U TIME AND TIME AGAIN, IT IZ EZ 2 BECOME A MAN OF STRENGTH; 1 WHO CAN PUSH HIZ WEIGHT AROUND, BUT DAT IZ NOTHING SPECIAL. WHAT IZ SPECIAL IZ DA 1 WHO CAN CONTROL HIZ ANGER AND DIZPLAY SELF CONTROL. SO U C, 1 WHO CAN CONTROL HIMSELF IZ BETTER OFF DEN A MIGHTY MAN.’
‘YEZ, I KNOW FATHER, BUT ITZ JUZT DAT I GET SO ANGRY SOMETIMEZ AND DA ONLY WAY I CAN THINK 2 FEEL BETTER IZ 2 LASH OUT. WHEN I KNOW I’VE HURT DA OBJECT OF MY DISSATISFACTION I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER.’ ENOCH SAID SMILING AZ IF HE WAZ FEELING DA EMOTION HE JUZT DESCRIBED.
‘I KNOW SON, BUT HOW DO U FEEL AFTER ITZ ALL DONE WITH?’ CAIN ASKED ENOCH.
‘WELL, I FEEL BAD DAT I HURT 1 OF MY BROTHERZ OR SISTERZ. WHEN I DESTROY SOMETHING DAT I NEEDED I FEEL, WELL, KIND OF STUPID.’ ENOCH ANSWERED.
‘LIKE A FOOL?’ CAIN SAID SMILING LOOKING HIZ SON IN DA EYEZ WITH HIZ HANDZ ON BOTH HIZ SHOULDERZ.
AT DAT ENOCH LOOKED DOWN TRYING 2 AVOID HIZ FATHERZ GAZE. ‘YEZ, JUZT LIKE A FOOL.’ ENOCH SAID. HE HATED WHEN HIZ FATHER DID DAT 2 HIM. HE HAD A WAY OF MAKING HIM FEEL SO ASHAMED OF LOSING HIZ TEMPER. HE HATED DA WAY CAIN WOULD MAKE HIM ADMIT HIZ ERROR INSTEAD OF JUZT ACCEPTING IT.
‘OF COURZE U FEEL LIKE A FOOL AFTERWARDS. WHAT HAVE I ALWAYZ TOLD U ABOUT ANGER SON? I TOLD U DAT ANGER REZT IN DA BOSOM OF A FOOL. DAT WHEN U LET IT CONSUME U, U DON’T THINK. U JUST DO WHATEVER IT IZ UR FEELING WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT DA REPERCUSSIONZ. REMEMBER SON, WHAT HAPPENZ IN DA BEGINNING IZ NOT WHATZ IMPORTANT, ITZ WHAT WILL B DA FINAL MATTER DAT IZ IMPORTANT. DA END IZ BETTER DEN DA BEGINNING, REMEMBR DAT!’
‘YEZ FATHER.’ ENOCH SAID FEELING EVEN MORE ASHAMED NOW DEN HE DID B4.
‘NOW, GO AND APOLOGIZE 2 UR BROTHER MY SON.’
‘BUT DAD,’ ENOCH SAID SHAKING HIZ HEAD 2 HIZ FATHER. HE HATED APOLOGIZING 2 HIZ YOUNGER BROTHERZ AND SISTERZ. HE FELT DEY WOULD NOT RESPECT HIM DA SAME WAY IF HE SHOWED WEAKNEZZ AND APOLOGIZED 2 DEM.
‘NO BUTZ! U JUZT GO AND DO WHAT I TOLD U!”
‘YEZ FATHER.” ENOCH SAID RELENTING.

Da Wanderer continued..chapter 8

2006-06-20T12:08:00.000-07:00

CHAPTER 8

WE SAW FRUIT TREEZ OF ABUDANCE EVERYWHERE. THERE WAZ ALSO A RIVER FLOWING THROUGH DA AREA DAT LOOKED LIKE IT WAZ TEEMING WITH LIFE. THERE WAZ A LARGE CLEARING DAT LOOKED LIKE IT WOULD MAKE GREAT FARMING LAND. THERE WERE ALL MANNER OF OTHER TREEZ DAT LOOKED LIKE THEY WOULD B GOOD 4 LIFE AND BUILDING MATERIAL.
2 DA WEZT WE SAW SHEEP IN VAZT AMOUNTZ GRAZING. I TOOK DIZ AZ A GOOD SIGN. U C ABEL TAUGHT ME IF THERE WERE AN ABUNDANT AMOUNT OF SHEEP AND THERE WAZ NO 1 CARING 4 DEM, DAT THERE PROBABLY WEREN’T A LOT OF PREDATORZ AROUND. IF DIZ WAZ DA CAZE, IT WOULD B BETTER 4 UZ. IT WOULD MEAN WE WOULDN’T HAVE 2 WORRY ABOUT FENDING OFF WILD ANIMALZ.
CAINENAH LOOKED AT ME, ‘ITZ BEAUTIFUL’ SHE SAID. ‘PLEAZE TELL ME WE CAN STAY.’ I LOOKED AT HER AND TOLD HER DAT I WOULD HAVE 2 LOOK AROUND 1ST AND MAKE SURE IT WAZ SAFE, BUT IF IT WAZ SAFE DA LAND LOOKED LIKE IT WOULD B ABLE 2 SUSTAIN UZ 4 A WHILE. LITTLE ID I KNOW DAT DIZ WOULD B OUR HOME 4 DA NEXT 200 YEARZ.
OVER DA NEXT FIVE MONTHZ WE BUILT 4 OURSELVEZ A NIZE SIZE HOME 2 PROTECT UZ FROM DA ELEMENTZ. MOZT OF DA TIME IT WAZ NIZE ENOUGH 2 SLEEP UNDER DA STARZ. THERE WAZ DA OCCASIONAL RAIN, WHICH KEPT DA LAND AZ BEAUTIFUL AZ IT WAZ. IT WAZ NOT LIKE DA RAIN DAT WOULD COME AT DA APPOINTED TIME 2 LET ME KNOW IT WAZ TIME 2 MOVE FROM PLAZE 2 PLAZE.
WE WORKED HARD DOZ 1ST COUPLE OF MONTHZ GETTING THINGZ DA WAY WE NEEDED DEM 2 B. WE WOULD HAVE FINISHED EVERYTHING A LOT SOONER BUT 4 DA 1ST 2 MONTHZ WE DIDN’T ACCEPT DA FACT DAT WE WERE GOING 2 B HERE DAT LONG. WE WANTED 2 STAY HERE 4 EVER BUT WE NEVER DWELT ON DA THOUGHT ON STAYING HERE 4 LONG. DA LAND WAZ LIKE PARADIZE AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN 2 SORROWFUL 2 PLAN 2 STAY HERE AND DEN HAVE DA RAIN COMING IN A MONTH OR SO 2 DRIVE UZ AWAY.
DA 1ST 2 MONTHZ WE MADE PREPARATIONZ 4 OUR IMMEDIATE NEEDZ. WE STORED FOOD, AND WATER, AND BUILT A SMALL LITTLE HUT WHICH WAZ BASICALLY 2 KEEP UZ OUT OF DA RAIN, PROTECTION FROM DA BEAZT AT NIGHT, AND SHADE IN DA DAYTIME. DA 1ST 2 MONTHZ WE WERE THERE WE NEVER TALKED ABOUT UZ STAYING, WE JUZT COMMENTED EVERY NOW AND DEN HOW BEAUTIFUL DA LAND WAZ.
OUR DAYZ CONSISTED BASICALLY OF SLEEPING, EATING, TALKING, AND EXPLORING DA LAND WE WERE IN. UNDER DIFFERENT CIRCUMSTANCEZ I WOULD HAVE BEEN TILLING DA EARTH, BUT SINZE I ASSUMED WE WOULD ONLY B HERE A MONTH OR 2, I FIGURED IT WOULD B POINTLEZZ.
AFTER WE’D BEEN HERE ABOUT 3 MONTHZ CAINENAH BEGIN 2 SHOW SIGNZ DAT SHE WAZ CARRYING LIFE. I REMEMBERED ALL DA SIGNZ FROM MOTHER. SHE BEGIN 2 THROW UP QUITE OFTEN AFTER SHE ATE. SHE STARTED WAKING UP ILL AND WANTED 2 EAT ALL DA TIME. WHEN DA WAY OF WOMEN STOPPED FALLEN UPON HER, AND HER BELLY AND FEET BEGIN 2 SWELL, I KNEW SHE WAZ CARRYING LIFE WITHIN HER.
AT DAT POINT I DECIDED 2 MAKE BETTER LIVING CONDITIONZ 4 HER SAFETY AND COMFORT. IF WE HAD 2 MOVE AGAIN WE WOULD JUZT HAVE 2 MOVE AGAIN.
WE PUSHED HARD AFTER DAT 2 GET THINGZ DA WAY WE NEEDED DEM 2 B. I KNEW FROM DA EXPERIENCEZ WITH MOTHER DAT AFTER A TIME CAINENAH WOULD NOT B MUCH HELP WITH ANY HEAVY LABOR. WE BUILT A BETTER LIVING ENVIRONMENT 2 STAY IN 4 DA COMFORT OF DA NEW LIFE DAT WOULD B COMING. I STARTED 2 CLEAR OUT LAND AND 2 TILL DA GROUND 2 ASSURE WE WOULD HAVE A CONSTANT SUPPLY OF FOOD.
DA WORK OF TILLING DA GROUND WAZ A LOT HARDER DEN IT UZE 2 B. IT SEEMED LIKE AZ SOON AZ I STARTED 2 WORK DA EARTH, IT BECAME VERY DRY AND HARD. DIZ MADE DA JOB HARDER SINCE I NOW HAD 2 GO AND FETCH WATER 2 SOFTEN DA EARTH. THERE SEEMED 2 B ROCKZ EVERYWHERE IN DA LAND I SET APART 2 TILL, AND CLEARING IT WAZ HARD WORK.
CAINENAH HELPED OFTEN 2 CLEAR ROCKZ, BUT MOZT OF DA TIME SHE WAZ BUZY COLLECTING WOOD 4 DA HOUSE, AND TAKEN CARE OF DA SHEEP WE HAD. WE KEPT ABOUT SIX SHEEP, FOUR FEMALEZ, AND TWO MALEZ. DA SHEEP WERE USED 4 MAKING CLOTHEZ AND BEDDING. 3 SHEEP WOULD’VE BEEN GOOD ENOUGH 2 SUSTAIN UZ ALONE BUT WITH DA LIFE WE WERE EXPECTING WE DIDN’T WANT 2 TAKE ANY CHANCEZ. WE SHEARED DA SHEEP AZ MOTHER SHOWED UZ AND KEPT DA COTTON IN A SMALL SHED WE BUILT 4 DA PURPOZE.
WE BUILT A NUMBER OF LITTLE SHEDZ 4 DIFFERENT USEZ. WE BUILT A SHED 4 STORING DA CROPZ DAT WOULD COME, AZ WELL AZ DA 1 4 DA COTTON. WE ALZO BUILT A SHED 4 STORING WOOD 4 DA FIRE, OR ANY WORK WE MAY NEED 2 DO ON DA HOUZE.
I CLEARED A LARGE AREA OF LAND 4 DA CROPZ. IT WAZ AROUND DA SIZE DAT WAZ CLEARED WHEN WE LIVED IN DA VILLAGE. UNDER NORMAL CIRCUMSTANZEZ DIZ WOULD B ENOUGH LAND 2 SUSTAIN A LARGE FAMILY, BUT I REMEMBERED QUITE CLEARLY DA CURZE DAT WAZ PLACED UPON ME. I WOULD AND COULD NOT FORGET IT. I LIVED DA CURZE CONSTANTLY. I WOKE UP EVERY MORNING LOOKING 4 DA SIGNZ OF DA CURZE.
I KNEW DAT 4 ME DA LAND WAZ CURZED TWICE, SO IT WOULD NOT YIELD ITZ STRENGTH 2 ME. BECUZ OF DIZ I PREPARED BY TILLING ENOUGH LAND 4 FOOD 2 SUFFIZE 7 TO 8 PEOPLE IN HOPEZ IT WOULD YIELD ENOUGH 4 2.
I DIDN’T HAVE 2 WORRY ABOUT DA NEW LIFE, SINCE I KNEW DAT SOON CAINENAH WOULD BEGIN 2 PRODUCE FOOD IN HER BOSOM 4 OUR NEW LIFE. I KNEW DAT DA AMOUNT SHE PRODUCED WOULD DEPEND ON HOW MUCH SHE EAT SO I TRIED 2 INSURE DAT WE HAD AZ MUCH FOOD AZ POSSIBLE.
I USED DA PROCESS OF LEAVING DA FRUITZ OUT 2 DRY IN DA SUN DAT DA VOICE TAUGHT UZ ABOUT. HE TOLD UZ DAT DIZ WAZ A WAY 2 PRESERVE IT. HE INFORMED UZ DAT ONCE AL DA WATER WAZ REMOVED IT WOULD LAZT LONGER WITHOUT SPOILING. DA FRUIT DRASTICALLY CHANGED ITZ TASTE AND SIZE WHEN DIZ HAPPENED SO I HAD 2 STORE AZ MUCH AZ I COULD FIND. I DID NOT WANT 2 WAKE UP WHEN DA CURZE HAD STRUCK AND B STUCK 4 FOOD.
I WAZ ALSO PREPARING 4 DA CHANGING OF SEASONZ. I COULD TELL BY DA PLACEMENT OF DA STARZ AND MOON DAT DA DEAD SEASON WAZ NOT 2 LONG 2 COME.
DA DEAD SEASON WAZ DA SEASON WHEN WE HAD 2 WEAR EXTRA CLOTHEZ AND DA TREEZ AND FLOWERZ BEGIN 2 DIE. FOOD BECAME SCARCE AND DA WEATHER WAZN’T AZ PLEASANT ANYMORE. FATHER TOLD UZ DAT DA VOICE CREATED DA MOON AND STARZ AZ A SOURZE OF LIGHT AND ALSO 2 INDICATE DA CHANGING OF SEASONZ. HE TOLD UZ DAT DA STARZ WOULD B IN A CERTAIN FORMATION AND LOCATION IN DA SKY AT DA CHANGING OF DA SEASONZ. WE WERE ABLE 2 TELL WHAT SEASON WAZ COMING B USING DIZ METHOD.
AZ A TILLER OF DA EARTH I KNEW WHAT SEASONZ WERE BEST 4 PLANTING, AND WHEN THINGZ WERE GOING 2 B READY 2 PICK. ABEL WAZ GOOD AT DIZ 2, SINZE HE SPENT A LOT OF NIGHTZ UNDER DA STARZ TENDING 2 HIZ FLOCK.
I WANTED EVERY THING 2 B READY LONG B4 DA DEAD SEASON WOULD COME UPON UZ. WE WERE A LITTLE PAZT DA SEASON OF REBIRTH. DIZ WAZ DA SEAZON IN DAT ALL DA THINGZ DAT DIED IN DA DEAD SEASON CAME ALIVE AGAIN. I KNEW DAT DIZ WAZ DA TIME 2 START PREPARING DA LAND IN ORDER 2 B PREPARED 4 DA FORMER AND LATTER RAIN.
RAIN WAZ NOT SOMETHING DAT CAME OFTEN IN LARGE ENOUGH AMOUNTZ 2 WATED DA EARTH, EXCEPT DURING DOZ TIMEZ IT WAZ TIME 4 ME 2 MIGRATE. RAIN CAME IN LARGE ENOUGH AMOUNTZ 2 HAVE A GOOD HARVEZT IN 2 MAJOR TIMEZ IN DA YEAR. IN ORDER 2 HAVE A GOOD YEAR OF HARVEZT U NEEDED BOTH OF DEZ.
IF IT RAINED 2 MUCH DURING ANY OF DEZ SEASONZ UR CROPZ WOULD B RUINED, AND IF IT DIDN’T RAIN ENOUGH DURING ANY OF DEZ 2 TIMEZ U WOULD NOT YIELD A GOOD HARVEZT.
ADAM TOLD UZ DAT DA VOICE WAZ IN CONSTANT CONTROL OF DA FORMER AND LATTER RAIN. AND DAT IF U DID NOT PLEAZE HIM DEY WOULD NOT COME AZ DEY WAZ SUPPOZE 2. HE TOLD UZ DAT AZ LONG AZ U PLEAZED HIM DAT HE WOULD ALWAYZ SEND DEM ON TIME. ADAM TOLD UZ DAT DIZ WAZ 2 INSURE DAT MAN WOULD KNOW DAT HE WAZ IN CONTROL AND 2 LOOK TOWARDZ HIM AND NOT THEMSELVEZ. ADAM WOULD SAY DAT NO MATTER HOW WIZE MAN WILL B COME HE WILL NEVER B ABLE 2 CONTROL DA RAIN AND WILL ALWAYZ B AT DA MERCY OF DA ELEMENTZ DAT DA VOICE CREATED AND CONTROLZ.
WE LEARNED MANY LESSONZ FROM ADAM ABOUT DA EXIZTENZE OF DA VOICE. ADAM TAUGHT ABOUT DA VOICE ALL DA TIME. HE TOLD UZ DAT DEZ WERE DA THINGZ DA VOICE TOLD HIM ABOUT HIMSELF AND DAT WE R NEVER 2 FEEL WE KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT DA VOICE EXCEPT DAT WHICH HE TELLZ UZ.
HE TOLD UZ DAT DA VOICE DID NOT DO THINGZ LIKE WE DO THINGZ, AND HE DID NOT THINK LIKE WE THOUGHT. HE WOULD SAY DAT AZ DA STARZ AND DA HEAVENZ R FAR FROM DA EARTH SO WAZ DA THOUGHTZ AND WAYZ OF DA VOICE. HE TOLD UZ 2 NEVER WASTE TIME AND EFFORT TRYING 2 FIGURE OUT DA WAYZ OF DA VOICE 4 HE WAZ UNFATHOMABLE. HE TOLD UZ DAT DERE R MANY SECRETZ IN DA WORLD BUT DAT DEY BELONG 2 DA VOICE AND HE GIVEZ 2 UZ DA THINGZ WE NEED 2 SURVIVE AND SERVE HIM.
I CAIN, AM A SURE WITNEZZ 2 DAT FACT. I KNOW DAT DA WAYZ OF DA VOICE R NOT LIKE ANY 1 DAT THINKZ OR BREATHZ. DA FATE HE YIELDED 2 ME IZ LIKE NOTHING NO 1 LIVING COULD HAVE THOUGHT UP. DA ONLY THING 1 CAN KNOW ABOUT DIZ VOICE IZ DAT WHICH HE REVEALZ 2 U; AND ADAM TAUGHT UZ DERE R MANY GREAT AND MYSTERIOUZ THINGZ IN DA WORLD. DURING MY LONG LIFE I HAVE COME ACROZZ MANY OF DEM. I HAVE TRAVELED AND SEEN MUCH, AND I KNOW DAT DA WAYZ OF DA VOICE R NOT LIKE DA WAYZ OF MAN.

Da Wanderer continued..chapterz 5, 6, 7

2006-06-19T12:26:00.000-07:00

CHAPTER 5

AZ I SAT OUTSIDE DA CAVE, DA CAVE DAT WOULD B OUR NEW HOME 4 DA NEXT 3 MONTHZ, I LOOKED OVER DA PLAINZ THINKING, I DID NOT WANT 2 THINK ABOUT WHAT I WAZ THINKING ABOUT, BUT DA THOUGHTZ JUZT CAME. DA THOUGHTZ WOULD COME OFTEN THROUGH MY LIFE, UNWILLING 2 BE REPRESSED.
I KNOW DA THOUGHTZ OF A MURDERER. DA MEMORIEZ OF IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY. IF U TAKE A LIFE, U WILL ALWAYS Z REMEMBER DAT EVENT LIKE IT JUZT TOOK PLACE. U WILL B ABLE 2 REMEMBER DA SMELL OF DA BLOOD, DA TEMPERATURE OF DA AIR, AND DA EXACT FEELING U HAD ONCE U REALIZED LIFE HAD LEFT DA PERSON’Z BODY.
I WOULD RELIVE DIZ EVENT, DA TAKING OF MY BROTHERZ LIFE OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IT WOULD ALWAYZ B AZ FRESH AZ DA FIRZT TIME. I WOULD FEEL DA ANGER, DA ENJOYMENT, DA GRATIFICATION, AND DEN DA SHOCK, SHAME, AND GUILT. DA EMOTIONZ WOULD B JUZT AZ REAL EVERY TIME. THEY WOULD B AZ THEY HAD BEEN WHEN IT 1ST HAPPENED.
IN MY OLD AGE, I CAME 2 DA CONCLUSION DAT DIZ WAZ DA WORK OF DA VOICE. DA VOICE WOULD NOT LET ME B COMFORTABLE AND FORGET WHAT I HAD DONE. EVEN IF I HAD NOT HAD DA MEMORIEZ, I WOULD ONCE AGAIN THINK ON IT EVERYTIME I WAZ FORCED 2 MOVE.
WHY DID I DO IT? WAZ I REALLY DAT ANGRY? WAZ IT WORTH IT? DEZ R DA QUEZTIONZ I OFTEN ASK MYSELF B4 OR AFTER DA MEMORIEZ COME. DA ANSWERZ ALWAYZ COME OUT DA SAME WAY. I DON’T KNOW Y I DID IT. Y AFTER I HIT HIM OUT OF ANGER, I CONTINUED 2 HIT HIM UNTIL I WAZ SURE HE WAZ DEAD. SURE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. I THOUGHT ABOUT IT ON MANY DIFFERENT OCCASIONZ. IT WAZ A PICTURE DAT WAZ CONSTANT AND CLEAR IN MY MIND.
YEZ I WAZ DAT ANGRY, BUT NO IT WAZ NOT WORTH IT. MY ANGER TRIGGERED DA THOUGHTZ IN MY HEAD, AND MY BODY SIMPLY REACTED. 2 TELL U DA TRUTH, IT WAZ LIKE I WAZ OUTSIDE OF MY BODY WHEN IT HAPPENED. MY BODY WANTED 2 DO WHAT I HAD DONE IN MY MIND ON COUNTLEZZ OCCASIONS. MY ANGER BLINDED ME UNTIL IT WAZ 2 LATE.

‘LISTEN MY BROTHER, DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT.’ ABEL SAID 2 CAIN SITTING ON A ROCK IN DA FIELD. CAIN SAID NOTHING LOOKING AT ABLE WHILE GRITTING HIZ TEETH. ‘IF U WANT I CAN COME AND LOOK AT UR STORE AND HELP U PICK OUT SOME OF UR STOCK AND U CAN OFFER AGAIN.’ ABEL TOLD HIZ BROTHER.
‘WHAT MAKEZ U THINK I WANT 2 OFFER AGAIN?’ CAIN SAID BITTERLY 2 ABEL.
‘I WAZ JUZT SAYING,’ ABEL SAID B4 CAIN CUT HIM OFF. ‘AND IF I WAZ GOING 2 OFFER AGAIN, WHAT WOULD MAKE U THINK I WOULD WANT UR HELP?’ CAIN SAID EYEING HIZ BROTHER. CAIN’Z ANGER WAZ STARTING 2 BUILD INSIDE HIM. HE COULD FEEL IT IN EVERY MUSCLE OF HIZ BODY. ‘WHAT, DO U THINK U R DA MASTER OF OFFERINGZ NOW?”
‘NO, ITZ NOTHING LIKE DAT. I WAZ JUZT TRYING 2 HELP.’ ABEL SAID WITH A SINCERE LOOK 2 HIZ BROTHER CAIN.
‘WELL I DON’T NEED, OR WANT UR HELP LITTLE BROTHER!’ CAIN SAID IT BEING OBVIOUZ DAT HE WAZ ANGRY NOW.
‘I HOPE I DIDN’T ANGER U BROTHER.’
‘U ANGER ME, PLEAZE.’ CAIN SAID, BUT HE WAZ LYING. ABEL OFFERING HIM HELP ANGERED HIM A LOT. HE FELT AZ IF ABEL THOUGHT HE WAZ BETTER DEN HIM. AND DAT HE KNEW MORE DEN HIM. CAIN CONTINUED, ‘Y WOULD U THINK I WOULD B ANGRY BECUZ OF U? WHAT, DO U THINK I WOULD B MOVED 2 ANGER BECUZ DA VOICE ACCEPTED UR PATHETIC OFFERING? GIVE ME A BREAK, UR OFFERING IZN’T EVEN GOOD ENOUGH 4 UZ 2 EAT!’ CAIN SAID COLDLY, STANDING ABOUT AN INCH AWAY FROM ABEL.
‘IT MAY NOT B GOOD ENOUGH 4 UZ 2 EAT, BUT OBVIOUZLY IT WAZ GOOD ENOUGH 4 DA VOICE 2 ACCEPT.’ ABEL RETORTED BACK. DIZ MADE CAIN FURIOUZ.
‘WHAT R U TRYING 2 SAY, DAT MY OFFERING WAZN’T GOOD ENOUGH 4 DA VOICE?’ CAIN ASKED STARING AT ABEL, HIZ INSIDEZ NOW ON FIRE.
‘IM NOT TRYING 2 SAY ANYTHING CAIN! I AM JUST POINTING OUT DA OBVIOUZ MY BROTHER.’ ABEL SAID IN A WAY 2 SHOW HIZ BROTHER DAT HE WAS NOT SCARED OF HIM. ABEL KNEW FROM A YOUTH DAT HE COULD NOT SHOW CAIN ANY TYPE OF FEAR. CAIN, AZ LONG AZ ABEL COULD REMEMBER WAZ VERY PUSHY AND FORCEFUL WITH HIM. ABEL LEARNED DAT IF HE SHOWED NAY FORM OF FEAR OR WEAKNEZZ CAIN WOULD FEED OFF OF IT AND DEAL WITH HIM ACCORDINGLY. WHEN HE LEARNED 2 STAND UP 2 CAIN HE BEGIN 2 REALIZE DAT CAIN WOULD BEGIN 2 PICK HIZ BATTLEZ INSTEAD OF DA ALL OUT TORMENT DAT HE UZE 2 INFLICT UPON HIM.
CAIN GLARED AT HIM AND DEN SMILED. ‘Y R RIGHT MY BROTHER. THERE IZ NO NEED 2 BICKER ABOUT DIZ. MAYBE IT WOULD B WIZE 2 LET U HELP ME PICK OUT SOMETHING 4 A NEW OFFERING. IM SORRY I BECAME SO HOSTILE.’
‘DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT BROTHER, IT WAZ NOTHING.’ ABEL SAID RETURNING DA SMILE.
‘WE CAN GO THERE NOW IF U WOULD LIKE.’ CAIN SAID STILL SMILING.
‘THEREZ NO BETTER TIME DEN DA PREZENT, AZ FATHER WOULD SAY.’ ABEL ANSWERED.
‘FINE, DEN LETZ GO. OH, BY DA WAY BROTHER, CAN U PAZZ ME MY STAFF?’ CAIN ASKED ABEL.
‘NO PROBLEM CAIN.’ ABEL SAID AZ HE TURNED 2 PICK UP CAINZ STAFF FROM DA GRAZZ. AZ HE TURNED 2 PICK UP DA STAFF HE DID NOT NOTICE CAIN PICKING UP A ROCK AND LIFTING IT OVER HIZ HEAD.
‘I HAVE IT BROTHER, U READY 2 GO?’ ABEL SAID AZ HE LOOKED UP JUZT IN TIME 2 C DA ROCK COMING DOWN UPON HIZ HEAD. HIZ LEGZ GAVE OUT AND HE FELL 2 1 KNEE DAZED TRYING 2 GET BACK 2 HIZ FEET AGAIN; BUT B4 ABEL COULD STAND AGAIN CAIN BROUGHT DA ROCK DOWN UPON HIZ HEAD AGAIN. DIZ BLOW OPENED A HUGE GASH ON ABEL’Z HEAD KNOCKING HIM BACK 2 DA GROUND AZ HE STARTED BLEEDING PROFUSELY.
CAIN KNEELED OVER HIM SMILING, ‘WHOZ DA 1 WHO NEEDZ HELP NOW, MY BROTHER?’ HE LIFTED DA ROCK HIGH ABOVE HIZ HEAD LOOKING AT ABEL BLEEDING AND IN AGONY.
‘Y MY BROTHER Y! DON’T DO DIZ, PLEAZE NO!’ ABEL BEGGED HAVING NO STRENGTH 2 REMOVE HIZ BROTHER OR EVEN BLOCK HIMSELF FROM DA NEXT BLOW; DA FINAL BLOW.
‘HOW DO U FEEL NOW, MY BROTHER? DO U FEEL LIKE U DID WHEN DA VOICE ACCEPTED UR OFFEREING, OR WHEN FATHER HAD A CELEBRATION 4 IT?’
‘BROHER DON’T DO DIZ.’ ABEL PLEADED IN A HALF WHISPER FEELING VERY WEAK NOW FROM DA LOSS OF BLOOD.
‘I GUEZZ U WONT B HELPING ME PICK FROM MY STOCK AFTER ALL BROTHER.’ CAIN SAID AZ HE BROUGHT DA ROCK DOWN CRASHING INTO ABELZ SKULL.
AT DAT ABEL SAID NOTHING ELZE. NOR DID HE MOVE. CAIN STOOD UP LETTING DA ROCK DROP 2 DA GROUND. HE LOOKED DOWN AT ABELZ LIFELEZZ BODY. HE KNEW HE WAZ DEAD WHEN HE SAW ABEL WAZ NOT BREATHING ANYMORE. HE LOOKED DOWN REVELING IN HIZ HANDY WORK.
SUDDENLY IT DAWNED ON HIM, ABEL WAZ DEAD. IT DAWNED ON HIM DAT HE HAD JUZT KILLED HIZ BROTHER. HE REALIZED DAT ABEL WAZ NOT COMING BACK WITH HIM, AND DAT HE WOULD NEVER PLAY OR WORK WITH HIM AGAIN. A FEELING OF HORROR OVERSHOT DA WHOLE OF HIZ ENTIRE BODY.
‘WHAT HAVE I DONE?’ HE SAID CONFUZED, LOOKING AT HIZ BLOODY HANDZ. HE BACKED UP TRIPPING AZ HE DIE. HE WATCHED ABELZ BLOOD SPREADING OUT OVER DA EARTH. HE TURNED AND RAN, THINKING HE WOULD RUN UNTIL HE COULD RUN NO MORE.
HE ENDED UP AT A CREEK WHERE HE BEGUN 2 WASH HIZ HANDZ OF ABELZ BLOOD. AZ HE CLEANED HIMSELF HE THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT HAD JUZT HAPPENED AND HE REALIZED DAT AT DA MOMENT HE WAZ HITTING ABEL WITH DA ROCK HE FELT UTTER HATRED 4 HIM, AND DAT HE HAD THOUGHT DA ONLY THINK DAT COULD MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER WAZ 2 C ABEL LYING THERE LIFELEZZ.
AFTER A LONG WASH, HE DECIDED HE WOULD JUST GO BACK 2 DA VILLAGE AND WHEN ASKED ABOUT ABELZ WHEREABOUTZ, HE WOULD SIMPLY SAY HOW SHOULD I KNOW, AM I HIZ KEEPER. HE DECIDED DAT WHEN HIZ BODY WAZ FINALLY DISCOVERED HE WOULD ACT JUZT AZ SURPRIZED AZ HIZ FAMILY AND EVEN FEIGN CRYING IF HE COULD.
‘YEZ, THATZ WHAT ILL DO, I’LL PLAY LIKE I HAVEN’T A CLUE AT WHAT HAPPENED.’ CAIN THOUGHT.
HE BEGIN 2 WALK BACK TOWARDZ DA VILLAGE WHEN HE BEGIN 2 SENZE EVERYTHING AROUND HIM ACTING UN’EZ, SOMETHING DAT HE KNEW CAME WITH DA COMING OF DA VOICE.
‘OH NOT NOW! WHAT DOEZ HE WANT?’ CAIN THOUGHT. ‘MAYBE HE CAME 2 ACCEPT MY BROTHER AZ AN OFFERING. MAYBE DATZ WHAT PLEAZEZ HIM.’ CAIN THOUGHT 4 A MOMENT, ‘DATZ RIDICULOUZ, OUR FATHER ALWAYZ TAUGHT UZ DAT DA VOICE DOEZN’T ACCEPT ANY HUMAN SACRIFICEZ. SO IF DATZ NOT DA CAZE DEN WHAT DOEZ HE WANT?’
‘CAIN.’ DA VOICE CALLED, ‘WHERE IZ THOU BROTHER ABEL?’
AZ CAIN HEARD DA VOICE HE REMEMBERED HIZ OFFERING AND IT NOT BEING ACCEPTED. HE THOUGHT ABOUT HIZ BROTHER OFFERING 2 HELP HIM ON HIZ NEXT OFFERING. DA MORE HE THOUGHT ABOUT DEZ EVENTZ DA ANGRIER HE BECAME. ‘ILL JUZT STICK 2 MY STORY.’ HE THOUGHT.
‘I DON’T KNOW: AM I MY BROTHERZ KEEPER?’ CAIN ANSWERED DA VOICE; NOT KNOWING DAT HIZ WHOLE LIFE WAZ ABOUT 2 CHANGE.

DEZ R DA MEMORIEZ DAT PLAGUE ME. DEZ R DA MEMORIEZ, WHICH CAUZEZ DA GUILT I FEEL. IN MY MIND I TRY 2 CHANGE DA EVENTZ BUT IT ALWAYZ ENDZ UP DA SAME. IT ALWAYZ ENDZ UP WITH ME SLAYING ABEL, AND DA VOICE PUNISHING ME, LEAVING ME WHERE I AM 2-DAY.

CHAPTER 6

DURING DA 1ST COUPLE OF DAYZ IN DA CAVE, CAINENAH CRIED QUITE OFTEN. SHE WOULD OFTEN LOOK AT ME WITH TEARZ IN HER EYEZ AFTER SHE FINISHED WITH ONE OF HER LONG CRYING SPELLZ, AND AZK ME Y DID I DO IT. SHE WOULD ASK ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL SHE WOULD BURZT INTO ANOTHER FIT OF CRYING.
ALL I COULD SAY WHEN SHE ASKED WAZ DAT I WAZ SORRY. I WAZ SORRY 4 KILLING OUR BROTHER, I WAZ SORRY DAT SHE COULD NOT C DA FAMILY, AND I WAZ SORRY WE HAD 2 LIVE LIKE DIZ.
‘AFTER ABOUT THREE WEEKZ IN DA CAVE, WE WERE PRETTY MUCH UZE 2 LIVING LIKE DIZ. WE HAD A STEADY ROUTINE. SO U C DIZ WAZ NOT DA MAIN PROBLEM WITH LIVING LIKE DIZ, IT WAZ DA SOLITARY CONDITIONZ OF OUR NEW EXIZTENZE DAT WAZ 2 MUCH 2 BEAR.
IN DA VILLAGE WE WORKED TOGETHER, ATE TOGETHER, AND LIVED TOGETHER. EVERYTHING WE DID AZ A FAMILY AND NOW IT WAZ JUZT CAINENAH AND ME. WE HAD 2 FEND 4 OURSELVEZ, WITHOUT DA HELP DAT MADE DA DIFFERENZE IF WE COULDN’T FIND ENOUGH FOOD OURSELVEZ.
ANOTHER CONCERN WAZ DA ANIMALZ. IN DA VILLAGE IT WAZ ENOUGH OF UZ 2 SCARE DA ANIMALZ, PLUZ DA ANIMALZ STILL HAD A SENZE OF FEAR AND RESPECT 4 ADAM. ADAM TOLD UZ DAT IN DA BEGINNING HE WAZ ABLE 2 DEAL WITH ALL ANIMALZ SAFELY AND PEACEFULLY, BUT DT AFTER THEIR PUNISHMENT IT WAZ NOT DA SAME WITH DEM.
HE TOLD UZ DAT DA SENZE OF PEACE WAZ NOT QUITE DA SAME, AND HE KNEW NOW DAT DA ANIMALZ AND MAN HAD 2 NOW RESPECT EACH OTHERZ SPACE.
DA ANIMALZ DID NOT FEAR OR RESPECT DA REZT OF UZ, AND WITHOUT ADAMZ PRESENZE, AND DA COMBINE FORZEZ OF DA OTHERZ WE WERE VULNERABLE 2 ALL DA ANIMALZ. WE ESPECIALLY LOOKED OUT 4 DA SERPENT. EVER SINZE DA VOICE CURZED DA SERPENT WE HAVE ALWAYZ HAD 2 DEAL WITH HIZ SEED.
THERE WERE MANY DIFFERENT VARIATIONZ OF HIZ SEED, BUT DA MOZT DANGEROUZ WAZ DA 1 ADAM NAMED DA SNAKE. ONCE A SNAKE BIT MALEE, 1 OF DA TWINZ, AND SHE BECAME VERY SICK. ADAM TOLD UZ DAT WE WERE 2 AVOID AT ALL COST ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH DA SERPENT. HE SAID DAT WE COULD NOT MIX AND DAT THEY WERE VERY DANGEROUZ 2 UZ.
MALEE RECOVERED, AND WAZ HAPPY 2 C DAT MELEE HAD FOUND DA SNAKE DAT BIT HER AND KILLED IT BY BASHING ITZ HEAD IN.
IT HAZ ALWAYZ FASCINATED ME DAT CUTTING A SNAKE IN HALF DOEZ NOT ALWAYZ KILL IT; DAT DA MOZT EFFECTIVE WAY 2 KILL 1 IZ 2 BACH ITZ HEAD IN. ADAM TOLD UZ DIZ WAZ BECUZ OF DA CURZE
WE KEPT DA FIRE GOING 2 KEEP DA SNAKEZ AWAY. WE KNEW THEY NEEDED HEAT FROM OTHER SOURCEZ 2 KEEP WARM, BUT THEY LIKE EVERY OTHER ANIMAL DID NOT LIKE 2 B AROUND FIRE AT ALL. I GUEZZ ANIMALZ HAVE ENOUGH SENZE 2 AVOID THNGZ DAT CAN DESTROY DEM.
I WIZH I HAD DAT SENZE. IF I HAD DAT WIZDOM I WOULD B HOME AT DA VILLAGE RIGHT NOW, AND MY BROTHER ABEL WOULD B ALIVE. I KNEW DAT IT WAZ VERY BAD 2 DO WHAT I DID, BUT I DIDN’T CARE. I FELT DAT ANYTHING DA VOICE COULD PUNISH ME WITH I COULD TAKE; BUT OBVIOUSLY I WAZ WRONG.
BY DA TIME DA SECOND MONTH CAME AROUND WE HAD DIZ CAVE LIVING DOWN PACK. WE KNEW ALL DA RIGHT SPOTZ 2 PICK FOOD AND WHERE 2 FIND PLENTY OF WATER. AZ DA TIME PROGRESSED I FELT DA PAIN OF NOT BEING IN DA VILLAGE STARTING 2 GO AWAY. IT WAZ AZ IF SINZE THEY WERE OUT OF SIGHT THEY WERE OUT OF MY MIND. I NOTICED DAT IT WAZ DA SAME WA WITH CAINENAH. SHE WAZ CRYING LEZZ FREQUENTLY AND BARELY SPOKE OF DEM, EVEN THOUGH DIZ COULD HAVE BEEN A WAY OF MAKING IT EASIER 4 HER 2 COPE WITH.
IT WAZN’T UNTIL JUZT ABOUT DA THIRD MONTH DAT I HAD AN EPIPHANY. I GUEZZ I DIDN’T C IT SINZE I WAZ 2 BUSY ADAPTING 2 MY NEW ENVIRONMENT. IT NEVER DAWNED ON ME ALL DIZ TIME DAT NOT LIVING IN DA VILLAGE WASN’T DA ONLY THING DAT CHANGED. 1 MORNING AFTER PRAYING I WAZ ABOUT 2 GO EAT WHEN I REALIZED DIZ OTHER CHANGE
IT HIT ME SUDDENLY EVEN THOUGH I WAZN’T REALLY THINKING ABOUT IT. IN DA PAZT, ABOUT EVERY 2 WEEKZ OR SO DA VOICE WOULD SPEAK 2 ME, IT WAZ PRETTY MUCH DA SAME WAY WITH ALL DA MEN IN DA FAMILY. NONE OF UZ USUALLY WENT 2 LONG WITHOUT HEARING FROM DA VOICE. DIZ WAZ SOMETHING DAT EVERY1 LOOKED FORWARD 2. DA WOMEN ALWAYZ LOOKED FORWARD 2 HEARING WHAT DA VOICE HAD TOLD WHOMEVER HE SPOKE 2.
U C, DA WOMEN DIDN’T HEAR FROM DA VOICE. FATHER, ADAM TOLD UZ DAT SINZE DA CURZE DA VOICE DEALT DIRECTLY WITH DA MAN AND DEN DA MAN WAZ W RELAY WHAT NEEDED 2 B RELAYED 2 HIZ FAMILY.
IT CAME 2 ME DAT MANY SUNZ AHD ROZEN AND SET AND I HADN’T HEARD DA VOICE’Z VOICE. WHEN I THOUGHT ABOUT DA LAZT TIME I COULD REMEMBER HEARING FROM DA VOICE I REALIZED DAT IT WAZ WHEN I WAZ CURZED.
AZ SOON AZ I THOUGHT ABOUT DAT, IT CAME BACK 2 ME LIKE IT JUZT HAPPENED. DA VOICE WOULD NO LONGER DEAL WITH ME; HIZ FACE WAZ HIDDEN FROM ME.
I SAT DOWN AT DIZ THOUGHT. MY LEGZ WENT WEAK, AND I DIDN’T HAVE DA STRENGTH 2 STAND. MY WHOLE BODY STARTED 2 TREMBLE, AND I BEGIN 2 FEEL A GREAT SORROW ALL OVER.
WHEN DA VOICE DEALT WITH U IT WAZ DA GREATEZT FEELING N DA WORLD. 4 A DAY OR 2 NOTHING COULD BOTHER U, AND ALL U WANTED 2 DO WAZ DESCRIBE DA EVENT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. BEING IN DA PRESENZE OF DA VOICE WAZ A WALL ROUND ABOUT U. KNOWING HE WAZ WITH U MADE U FEAR NOTHING. EVEN IF U WERE AT DA POINT OF DEATH, U KNEW DAT HE WOULD COMFORT U.
I REMEMBER HOW ABEL WOULD DESCRIBE DA VOICE. HE WOULD SAY DAT DA VOICE WAZ OUR SHEPARD, AND AZ LONG AZ WE STAYED IN HIZ FAVOR WE WOULD WANT 4 NOTHING.
ADAM WOULD SAY DAT OF ALL DA THINGZ 2 TRUZT N 1 MIGHT THINK OF, LIKE DA LEGZ OF A HORZE, OR IN ANOTHER MAN, DAT DA VOICE WAZ DA ONLY THING DAT U SHOULD TRUZT N.
2 UZ DA VOICE WAZ EVERYTHING, AND WE KNEW WE WOULD B NOTHING WITHOUT HIM, AND I WAZ NOT AT DAT PLACE. I WAZ IN A PLACE OF DARKNEZZ! I WAZ IN A PLACE WHERE I NOW HAD 2 FIGURE THINGZ OUT MYSELF, WITHOUT DA HELP OF DA VOICE.
DA VOICE INSTRUCTED UZ IN LOTS A THINGZ. HE TOLD UZ OF REMEDIEZ FROM DA PLANTZ 2 HELP UZ WHEN WE FELT ILL. HE TOLD UZ HOW 2 MAKE SHELTER FROM DA ELEMENTZ. HE TOLD UZ OF CERTAIN VEGETATION DAT WAZ NOT GOOD 4 UZ 2 EAT. IT WAZ HE WHO INSTRUCTED ADAM HOW 2 KEEP A FLOCK, AND HOW 2 GROW WHAT WE NEEDED, WHO DEN IN TURN TAUGHT ABEL AND MYSELF.
DA VOICE WOULD CONSTANTLY TELL UZ HOW WE NEEDED NOTHING ELZE BESIDEZ HIM. HE TOLD UZ 2 NOT B IMPREZZED AT DA THINGZ DAT WE MIGHT THINK R GREATER DEN UZ, LIKE DA SUN, DA STARZ, AND DA RIVERZ. HE TOLD UZ DAT THOUGH DOZ THINGZ AND OTHERZ SUCH AZ BIRDZ, AND LIONZ COULD DO THINGZ WE COULDN’T, WE MUZT ALWAYZ REMEMBER DAT ‘HE PUT DEZ THINGZ HERE 2 SERVE UZ’.
DA VOICE TOLD UZ DAT THERE WOULD B A DAY WHEN MEN WOULD LOOK UNTO DEZ THINGZ LIKE WE LOOK UNTO HIM. AT DAT TIME WE COULD NOT REALLY IMAGINE ANY 1 DOING ANYTHING AZ RIDICULOUZ AZ DAT. WE COULD NOT UNDERSTAND Y ANY 1 WOULD LOOK 2 A BIRD JUZT BECUZ IT COULD FLY, OR 2 DA SUN JUZT BECUZ IT GAVE LIGHT; BUT 2 UZ DA MOZT RIDICULOUZ 1 WAZ A MAN LOOKING 2 ANOTHER MAN. WE COULD NOT GRAZP A MAN LOOKING 2 ANOTHER MAN, AZ SOMETHING GREATER DEN HIMSELF, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY WOULD ALL DIE DA SAME WAY. BUT DA VOICE HAD TOLD UZ DAT THERE WOULD B A DAY WHEN DIZ WOULD HAPPEN.
DA VOICE TOLD UZ MANY THINGZ ABOUT DA WORLD AND ABOUT HIMSELF. HE TOLD UZ DAT HE WAZ JEALOUZ 4 HIZ NAME SAKE. HE SAID DAT HE HAZ NEVER, AND WILL NEVER GIVE MAN DA RIGHT 2 FURNIZH UPON ANYTHING OR ANY 1 DA GLORY DAT IZ DUE 2 HIM AND HIM ALONE.
IT BROUGHT A FEELING OF JOY THINKING ABOUT DA VOICE SPEAKING 2 UZ. BUT NOW I HAD REALIZED DAT, IT WOULD NEVER B ME AGAIN. I WOULD NEVER HEAR DA VOICE AGAIN.
I LAY ON DA GROUND SINKING DEEPER INTO EMOTIONZ OF DESPAIR, SORROW, AND GUILT. I COULDN’T IMAGINE WHAT LIFE WAZ GOING 2 B LIKE NOW WITH OUT DA VOICE.
MAYBE I WOULD OFFER HIM AN OFFERING AND GET IN HIZ FAVOR AGAIN; BUT I KNEW DIZ WAZ NO GOOD. I KNEW BECUZ OF MY DEED I WAZ DEEMED AZ WICKED, AND SOMEHOW I KNEW DAT MY OFFERINGZ WOULD B AN ABOMINATION UNTO HIM.
I WAZ NOT ABLE 2 DWELL ON DIZ 4 2 MUCH LONGER, EVEN THOUGH I COUL HAVE. 4 1 DAY WHEN WE WENT 2 FIND FOOD WE BARELY SALVAGED ENOUGH 2 REMOVE DA STING OF HUNGER. WE FOUND DIZ STRANGE SINZE IT WAZ PLENTEOUZ DA DAY B4.
WHEN WE WENT 2 GET SOME WATER DA SITUATION SEEMED 2 B DA SAME. WHEREAZ THERE WAZ PLENTY OF WATER DA DAY B4, THERE WAZ LITTLE 2’DAY. LOOKING, I REALIZED THERE WOULDN’T B ENOUGH WATER 2 SUSTAIN OUR NEEDZ 4 ANOTHER 3 DAYZ.
JUZT WHEN WE THOUGHT THINGZ COULDN’T GET WORZE, DAT STORM DAT HAD MOVED UZ HERE STARTED AGAIN. AT 1ST WE WERE HAPPY AT DIZ BECUZ NOW WE HAD WATER 2 DRINK, BUT IT KEPT RAINING AND WOULDN’T STOP. WE KNEW DAT IF IT KEPT UP LIKE DIZ, WHAT LITTLE FOOD THERE WAZ WOULD B DESTROYED.
AFTER IT CONTINUED RAINING FROM DA TIME DA SUN WENT DOWN UNTIL DA TIME DA SUN CAME BACK UP I KNEW WHAT IT MEANT.
I HAD A FEELING WHAT WAZ GOING ON WHEN IT STARTED RAINING BUT I KEPT IT 2 MYSELF. I DIDN’T WANT 2 SCARE CAINENAH, SINZE SHE JUZT STARTED 2 GET COMFORTABLE WHERE AND ACCEPT OUR PLIGHT. I WAZ ALSO HOPING I WAZ WRONG, AND DAT DA STORM WOULD PAZZ. BUT BY MIDDAY WHEN DA RAIN DIDN’T STOP I KNEW AZ LONG AZ WE STAYED HERE IT WOULDN’T STOP.
I COULD TELL CAINENAH KNEW IT 2, BECUZ WHEN I LOOKED AT HER 2 TELL HER SHE BROKE DOWN IN 2 TEARZ, AND STARTED PLEADING, ‘PLEAZE NO, NOT AGAIN!’ SHE CRIED BURYING HER HEAD INTO MY CHEZT. I TOLD HER WE HAD 2 GO, SO LETZ START PACKING WHAT LITTLE FOOD WE HAD LEFT AND GET READY 2 GO.
‘NO!’ SHE CRIED. ‘IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE. WE CAN JUZT WAIT IT OUT. IT’LL STOP SOONER OR LATER!’
I TOLD HER IT WAZN’T GOING 2 STOP AND DAT IF WE WAITED 2 MUCH LONGER WE WOULD STARVE. SHE HELD OUT A LITTLE BIT LONGER, BUT EVENTUALLY, ALTHOUGH IN TEARZ DA WHOLE TIME, SHE HELPED PACK UP WHAT WE COULD CARRY. ONCE AGAIN IN DA RAIN WE SET OFF, AZ WE WOULD DO MANY MORE TIMEZ IN DA FUTURE.

CHAPTER 7
AZ WE LEFT DA CAVE I KNEW DAT WHEREVER OUR DESTINATION WAZ 2 B IT HAD 2 B AWAY FROM DA VILLAGE. WE DID JUZT DAT, WE JUZT STARTED 2 WALK IN DA OPPOSITE DIRECTION OF DA VILLAGE, AND JUZT AZ B4 DA FURTHER WE MOVED AWAY FROM DA CAVE, DA RAIN BEGIN 2 DECREAZE. IT WAZ SOMETIME B4 IT COMPLETELY STOPPED. I LATER FIGURED DAT I WAZN’T ABLE 2 SET DOWN UNTIL DA RAIN WAZ COMPLETELY FINISHED.
WHEN IT FINALLY STOPPED WE CONTINUED 2 WALK UNTIL WE BEGIN 2 C VEGETATION. IT WAZ PERFECT TIMING SINZE CAINENAH STARTED 2 COMPLAIN DAT SHE COULDN’T WALK ANYMORE.
WE SAT DOWN OUR STUFF AZ I DECIDED 2 GO AND FIND SOMETHING 2 EAT. DA RATIONZ WE HAD WERE SPENT SOMETIME AGO SO WE BOTH WERE PRETTY HUNGRY. I FOUND A TREE WITH APPLEZ GROWING FROM IT. THEY WERE EXTREMELY RED, AND BIG. I TOOK 1 DOWN, AND TOOK A BITE OUT OF IT. IT WAZ PERFECTLY RIPE AND SWEET. AFTER I ATE 1 I BEGIN 2 COLLECT DEM IN DA BAG WE PUT TOGETHER 4 STORING FOOD. LOOKING AT DEZ APPLEZ I BEGIN 2 THINK OF DA FRUIT DAT WAZ DEEMED FORBIDDEN.
WE OFTEN AZKED FATHER WHAT KIND OF FRUIT IT WAZ AND WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE. HE WOULD ALWAYZ TELL UZ DA SAME THING; DAT IT WAZ HARD 2 DESCRIBE SINZE NO OTHER FRUIT LOOKED LIKE IT. HE DEN TOLD UZ DAT DA FRUIT DID NOT EXIZT ANYMORE SO WE WOULD NOT B ABLE 2 C IT.
I TOOK DA FRUITZ BACK 2 CAINENAH WHO WAZ SITTING CRYING AGAIN. SHE LOOKED UP AT ME, STARTED BY MY PRESENZE. ‘HOW LONG WILL WE HAVE 2 GO THROUGH THIZ’ SHE ASKED. I TOLD HOW I DIDN’T KNOW AND DAT SHE SHOULDN’T WORRY ABOUT IT, AND 2 EAT SOMETHING.
SHE TOOK AN APPLE AND STARTED EATING IT, WHEN SHE LOOKED UP ASKING ME HOW OFTEN DIZ WAZ GOING 2 HAPPEN. AFTER I SWALLOWED I TOLD HER DAT I DIDN’T KNOW, AND NOT 2 WORRY ABOUT IT.
I DIDN’T WANT HER 2 WORRY ABOUT IT. I DECIDED DAT I WOULD TAKE ALL DA PRESSURE ON MY SHOULDERZ SINZE IT WAZ MY FAULT WE WERE IN DIZ PREDICATMENT 2 BEGIN WITH. WHAT SHE ASKED WAZ SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT MYSELF. HOW OFTEN WOULD DIZ HAPPEN? WAZ THERE GOING 2 B A SET TIME OR WAZ IT JUZT GOING 2 B A RANDOM THING? IT WASN’T UNTIL LATER IN LIFE DAT I FIGURED DIZ 1 OUT.
AFTER EATING ENOUGH WE SAT AND RESTED, CAINENAY RESTING AGAINST MY CHEZT AZ WE RELAXED AGAINZT A TREE. I SAT AND THOUGHT 2 MYSELF NOT WANTING 2 STIR UP ANY MORE EMOTIONZ IN CAINENAH.
I SAT AND WONDERED WHAT ADAM WAZ DOING RIGHT NOW. I WONDERED IF MOTHER STILL LOVED ME, AND IF SHE THOUGHT ABOUT UZ. I WONDERED IF MAYB 1 OF DEZ DAYZ I WOULD EVER C ANY 1 OF DEM AGAIN. DID MOTHER HATE ME AZ MUCH AZ ADAM DID? I WONDERED IF THEY TALKED ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED OR IF IT WAZ FORBIDDEN?
DID ADAM REALLY MEAN WHAT HE SAID ABOUT IT BEING AZ IF I NEVER WAZ? WAZ ANY CONVERSATION ABOUT ME FORBIDDEN? I WONDERED IF ADAM HATED OR MISSED CAINENAH? HOW DID MY SISTERZ FEEL ABOUT ME? I WONDERED IF THEY FELT AZ PASSIONATE AGAINST ME AS ADAM DID.
DIZ WAZ 2 DEPREZZING 2 THINK ABOUT, SO I DECIDED 2 GO AND SCOUT OUT DA AREA 2 C IF IT WOULD FIT OUR NEEDZ. SINZE I WAZ A TILLER OF DA GROUND I KNEW WHAT 2 LOOK 4 WHEN IT CAME 2 WHETHER LAND WOULD B ABLE 2 SUSTAIN LIFE. AFTER ABOUT AN HOUR I CAME BACK.
CAINENAH ASKED IF WE WERE STAYING, AND I TOLD HER ‘NO’. I TOLD HER DA AREA WOLDNT B ABLE 2 SUSTAIN UZ 4 LONG, AND DAT DA APPLE TREE WAZ 1 OF A FEW TREEZ DAT GREW EDIBLE VEGETATION. I ALSO TOLD HER DAT THERE WEREN’T DAT MANY WATER SOURCEZ AROUND HERE AND NOT ENOUGH MATERIAL HERE 2 BUILD SHELTER AND SUSTAIN DA FIREZ NEEDED AT NIGHT. I TOLD HER WE SHOULD GET GOING B4 NIGHT FALL.
I PACKED UP AZ MANY APPLEZ AZ WE COULD CARRY AND FILLED DA WATER SKINZ UP AND WE SET OUT AGAIN. WE MADE A COUPLE OF STOPZ 2 EAT, DRINK, AND REZT. WHEN MOVING WE SAW MANY OF DA WONDERFUL ANIMALZ DAT DA VOICE CREATED, AND ADAM NAMED. WE SAW DA LONG NECK HORZEZ FATHER CALLED GIRAFFEZ GRAZING. WE SAW DA MAJEZTIC LIONZ CHAZE DOWN A BABY GAZELLE. WE SAY BIRDZ OF ALL COLORZ DRINKING FROM A SMALL POND. DA LAND WAZ BEAUTIFUL, GIVING LIFE 2 ALL MANNER OF FLOWERZ.
I DECIDED DAT WE WOULD WALK UNTIL WE WOULD B ABLE 2 FIND SHELTER 4 DA NIGHT EVEN IF IT WAZ GOING 2 B TEMPORARY. 1 THING I KNEW WAZ DAT IT WAZ NOT 2 SMART 2 SLEEP IN DA OPEN FIELD AT NIGHT. I MIGHT HAVE RISKED DIZ IN DA PAZT, BUT SINZE I DID NOT FEEL I HAD DA PROTECTION OF DA VOICE, I WOULD NOT TRY IT NOW.
DA SUN WAZ ABOUT 2 GIVE WAY 2 DA MOON IN A HOUR OR SO, SO I DECIDED WE WOULD SEEK SHELTER DA 1ST PLACE WE WOULD FIND. I DID NOT WANT UZ 2 B WANDERING WHEN DA SUN WENT DOWN. WITHOUT A SOURCE OF LIGHT U COULD NOT C MORE THEN FIVE FEET IN FRONT OF U.
IF WE DID NOT FIND ADEQUATE SHELTER OVER DIZ NEXT HILL WE WERE ABOUT 2 GO OVER, I WOULD JUZT SET UP CAMP SO NOT 2 GET CAUGHT WANDERING WHEN DA SUN WENT DOWN.
AZ WE REACHED DA TOP OF DA HILL, WE LAID EYEZ ON DA EMBODIMENT OF BEAUTY. WE STOOD JUZT LOOKING AHEAD OF UZ AT DIZ GLORIOUZ SIGHT. CAINENAH SQUEEZED MY HAND, AZ I LOOKED AT HER AND SMILED.

Da Wanderer..continued.chapter 4

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CHAPTER 4
‘DA MEMORIEZ OF DA CURZE DA VOICE HAD PUT UPON ME WAZ 2 MUCH. I DROVE THEM OUT OF MY HEAD, BUT I COULDN’T DRIVE OUT DA MEMORY OF WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I 1ST CAME BACK 2 DA VILLAGE. DA MEMORY OF MY FATHER TELLING ME HE KNEW, AND DAT I WAZ NOT ABLE 2 ENTER INTO DA VILLAGE. DA MEMORY OF MY MOTHER NOT ANSWERING MY CALLZ, OR DA LOOK MY WOMAN AND SISTERZ HAD WHEN THEY LOOKED UPON MY NEW APPEARANCE.
‘DA TWINZ EVEN YELLED, STARTLED AT WHAT I NOW LOOKED LIKE. MY WOMAN STARED AT ME LIKE SHE HAD NEVER SEEN ME B-4.
‘DA HOURZ I SAT OUTSIDE DA VILLAGE WAZ AGONIZING, WATCHING ADAM AND MY SISTERZ REMOVE MY THINGZ FROM DA VILLAGE AND THROWING THEM IN MY DIRECTION. DA WHOLE TIME ADAM NEVER TOOK DOZ HATEFUL EYEZ OFF OF ME. MY SISTERZ CRIED DA WHOLE TIME. MY WOMAN CRIED DA WHOLE TIME, AND SO DID I.
‘I THINK DA ONLY REAZON MY THINGZ WERE GIVEN OVER WAZ ON ACCOUNT OF MY WOMAN. I GUEZZ THEY FELT IT MADE NO SENZE MAKING HER SUFFER 2 MUCH. IT WAZ BAD ENOUGH SHE HAD 2 SUFFER BY BEING MINE.
WHEN CAINENAH STARTED 2 COMPLAIN ABOUT BEING HUNGRY AND COLD, I FIGURED I WOULD SET UP OUR STUFF, AND GO FIND SOMETHING 2 EAT. I HAD DECIDED DAT SINCE I COULD NOT LIVE IN DA VILLAGE DAT WE WOULD STAY NEAR DA VILLAGE. WE WOULD SET UP LIVING ARRANGEMENTZ A SHORT DISTANT FROM DA VILLAGE. SURELY TIME WOULD PAZZ AND DA HATE WOULD B DIMINISHED AND WE WOULD BE ABLE 2 MOVE BACK INTO DA VILLAGE.
AT LEAZT DIZ WAY I FIGURED, UNTIL THAT TIME WE WOULD STILL B ABLE 2 C DA FAMILY; BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED NEXT WHICH WOULD SHOW ME DAT, DAT WAZ NOT GOING 2 HAPPEN.
A STORM STARTED 2 BREW OUT OF NOWHERE. NOIZEZ FROM DA CLOUDZ, STARTED, AND STRANGE SPURTZ OF LIGHT APPEARED SUDDENLY, AND THEN IT STARTED RAINNING.
DIZ WAZ NOT DA SLIGHT DOWNPOUR DAT FELT INVIGORATING ON A NIZE SUNNY DAY LIKE WE WERE USE 2. NO, DIZ WAZ A LOT DIFFERENT. IT WAZ COMING DOWN REALLY HARD AND DA WIND STARTED 2 BLOW OUR THINGZ ALL OVER DA PLAZE.
WE GRABBED WHAT WE COULD AND DECIDED 2 SEEK SHELTER. WE FIGURED WE WOULD CUM BACK WHEN DA STRANGE STORM LET UP.
DA RAIN WAZ COMING DOWN SO HARD WE COULD BARELY C IN FRONT OF UZ. DA WIND WAZ PUSHING POOR CAINENAH ALL OVER DA PLAZE. IT WAZ FORTUNATE 4 UZ DAT I KNEW DA AREA SOME, AND KNEW THERE WERE CAVEZ ALL ABOUT UZ.
AZ WE WALKED A LITTLE DISTANCE FROM DA VILLAGE I REALIZED DAT DA RAIN WAZ SLOWING DOWN, SO WE DECIDED 2 TURN AROUND AND HEAD BACK 2 DA VILLAGE; BUT AS WE TURNED IN DA DIRECTION OF DA VILLAGE I NOTICED DAT DA RAIN STARTED 2 CUM DOWN UNTIL WE WERE FORCED 2 TURN AND LOOK 4 DOZ CAVEZ AGAIN.
JUZT LIKE B-4, WHEN WE STARTED 2 HEAD IN DA OTHER DIRECTION AWAY FROM DA VILLAGE DA STORM STARTED 2 STOP, SO JUST LIKE B-4 WE TURNED IN DA DIRECTION OF DA VILLAGE. AZ WE BEGIN 2 WALK DAT WAY DA RAIN WOULD START AGAIN, AND AZ WE WALKED ON IT CAME DOWN HARDER.
‘THIZ TIME WHEN WE TURNED, I DECIDED DAT WE WOULD SEEK COVER AND MAKE SURE DA STORM HAD COMPLETELY PAZZED B-4 WE WOULD MAKE OUR WAY BACK 2 DA VILLAGE.
BY DA TIME WE MADE IT 2 -1 OF DA MANY CAVEZ IN DA AREA DA STORM STOPPED. WE DECIDED 2 REZT 4 A WHILE AND CATCH OUR BREATH B-4 HEADING BACK TOWARDZ DA VILLAGE. DIZ WAY WE WOULD B ABLE 2 B CERTAIN DAT DA STORM HAD PAZZED.
AZ WE REZTED IN DA CAVE I TRIED 2 REMEMBER IF I COULD EVER REMEMBER IT RAINING LIKE DIZ B-4 AND I COULD NOT. I COULD NOT REMEMBER ADAM EVER SPEAKING OF IT RAINING LIKE DIZ B-4 EITHER, STRANGE I THOUGHT.
AFTER SOMETIME HAD PAZZED AND MY WOMAN COMPLAINED ABOUT HOW HUNGRY SHE WAZ I DECIDED WE SHOULD HEAD BACK 2 SET UP CAMP AND GET SOMETHING 2 EAT.
WE COLLECTED OUR THINGZ, WHICH HAD DRIED BY NOW FROM DA SUN, AND WE BEGIN OUR TRIP BACK TOWARDS DA VILLAGE. BUT JUZT AZ B-4 WHEN WE STARED HEADING IN DAT DIRECTION IT STARTED 2 RAIN. DIZ TIME I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. HOW PECULIAR DIZ WAZ SINZE DA SKY WAZ JUST CLEAR AND THERE WAZNT A CLOUD IN SIGHT.
WE STOOD THERE 4 A SHORT WHILE SEEING IF IT WOULD PAZZ. BUT IT KEPT RAINING, NOT GETTING ANY HEAVIER OR LIGHTER. I BEGIN 2 NOTICE SOMETHING STRANGE WHEN, AZ WE BEGIN 2 WALK BACK TOWARDZ DA VILLAGE DA RAIN BEGIN 2 GET HEAVIER.
I DECIDED WE WOULD CONTINUE 2 GO FORWARD AND WAIT 4 DA RAIN 2 STOP AZ IT DID B-4; BUT DA MORE WE WALKED DA HEAVIER DA RAIN FELL; IT WAZ AZ IF IT WAZ TRYING 2 STOP UZ.
DEN JUST LIKE DAT IT HIT ME. I THOUGHT ‘WHAT DID DA VOICE SAY, OH YEZ NOW I REMEMBER’ “A FUGUTIVE AND A VEGABOND SHALL THOU B IN DA EARTH.”
DAT WAZ IT! I COULDN’T GO BACK THERE AND SETTLE DOWN. DA VOICE WAZ BEHIND DIZ, AND HE WAZ NOT GOING 2 LET ME BACK THERE. I GRABBED MY WOMANZ HAND AND HEADED BACK 2 DA CAVE WE JUZT LEFT, AND JUZT AZ I EXPECTED, AZ WE TURNED 2 HEAD TOWARDZ DA CAVE DA RAIN BEGIN 2 SLOW UNTIL IT FINALLY STOPPED AZ WE NEARED DA CAVE.
INSIDE I EXPLAINED 2 CAINENAH ABOUT WHAT JUZT HAPPENED AND DAT WE COULDN’T GO LIVE NEAR DA VILLAGE, AND DAT WE WERE NEVER GOING 2 LIVE IN DA VILLAGE AGAIN. DIZ WAZ 2 MUCH 4 CAINENAH, MY WOMAN 2 BEAR. SHE SAT THERE CRYING IN HER WET CLOTHEZ.
SHE CRIED 4 A LONG PERIOD AND I COULDN’T BLAME HER. SHE NEVER THOUGHT DAT SHE WOULD NEVER C HER FAMILY AGAIN. SHE NEVER THOUGHT DAT SHE WOULD NEVER B ABLE 2 LIVE IN DA VILLAGE AGAIN. 2 TELL U DA TRUTH I NEVER IMAGINED IT EITHER.
I NEVER IMAGINED DAT SEEING MY MOTHER SOBBING IN ADAMZ ARMZ WOULD B DA LAZT TIME I WOULD C HER. I NEVER THOUGHT DA LAZT MEMORY OF MY FATHER WOULD B OF HIM LOOKING AT ME LIKE I WAZ HIZ MORTAL ENEMY.
THINKING OF DIZ, I FELT DA TEARZ BEGIN 2 FALL DOWN MY FACE. IT FELT LIKE MY HEART WAZ BEING TORN OUT OF MY CHEZT. DAT WEIGHT DAT I FELT EARLIER WAZ BACK AND HEAVIER THAN EVER.
WE SAT THERE 4 A LONG TIME HOLDING EACH OTHER AND CRYING, NOT SAYING A WORD 2 EACH OTHER. I KNEW I SHOULD SAY SOMETHING 2 CAINENAH, SOMETHING 2 COMFORT HER; AFTER ALL SHE DID NOT DESERVE DIZ. SHE DID NOT DO ANYTHING 2 HAVE DIZ FATE FORCED UPON HER.
ITZ LIKE DAT U KNOW; A MAN AND HIZ WOMAN WILL SHARE EACH OTHERZ SINZ. THEY LIVE IN DA SAME DWELLING, SHARE DA SAME LIFE, SO IF ANYTHING HAPPENZ 2 1 4 CHASTIZEMENT OF SIN IT WILL B FELT BY DA OTHER.
AZ I OPENED MY MOUTH 2 SAY SOMETHING I COULD THINK OF NOTHING, SO I JUZT SAT THERE AND CRIED UNTIL I DRIFTED OFF 2 SLEEP.
IN MY DREAM I SAW ME WITH BLOOD ON MY HANDZ. I SAY ABEL TELLING ME ‘JUZT GIVE HIM UR BEZT’ WITH DA GASH IN HIZ HEAD WHERE I HIT HIM. I SAW ADAM SCREAMING ‘U R OT MY SON! U NEVER EXIZTED, U NEVER WERE!’ I SAW MOTHER LEANING OVER ABEL CRYING, AND CRYING, AND SHE WOULDN’T STOP. I SAW MY SISTERZ, AND AZ I WALKED TOWARDZ DEM THEY RAN AWAY SCREAMING.
THEN I STOOD B-4 MYSELF. I STOOD B-4 DA OLD ME. DA WAY I UZE 2 LOOK B-4 MY CURZE. I WATCHED AZ MY OLD APPEARANCE FADED AWAY, TELLING ME AZ HE WENT, ‘THEY’RE GOING 2 GET U. THEY WILL CHAZE U 4-EVER.’ IN DA DISTANCE I SAW SOME 1 WHO RESEMBLED ME A LITTLE, STANDING OVER ANOTHER YOUNG MAN WHO SEEMED 2 B LIFELEZZ. DA 1 DAT RESEMBLED ME WAZ MUMBLING ‘SEVENTY AND SEVEN FOLD, SEVENTY AND SEVEN FOLD, AND DEN HE LOOKED AT ME. IN HIZ EYEZ WAZ DA SAME FIRE DAT WAZ IN ADAMZ EYEZ AND HE SAID POINTING AT ME. ‘U R A BLOODY MAN, A FATHER OF BLOODY MEN.’
I COULD HEAR DA VOICE, ‘FUGITIVE AND VEGABOND!’ I SAW A BRIGHT BLADE REVOLVING AROUND A TREE, DEN DA TREE TRANZFORMED 2 ABEL, AND THEN DA VILLAGE. I HEARD A VOICE, DA VOICEZ VOICE. ‘THOU SHALL NOT MURDER’ HE SAID OVER AND OVER AGAIN OUT OF NOWHERE APPEARED A SERPENT SAYING ‘SURELY U SHALL NOT DIE, EAT IT. UR OFFERING WAZ BETTER THEN ABEL, SLAY HIM.’ ADAM’Z FACE APPEARED SUDDENLY SAYING, ‘U LIKED IT DIDN’T U! U LIKED SLAYING UR BROTHER!’
‘NO’ I CRIED, ‘NO I DIDN’T LIKE IT, I DIDN’T LKE IT’ I SAID AGAIN AZ I WOKE UP IN A COLD SWEAT.
IT WAZ MORNING AND CAINENAH WAZ STILL SLEEP. I LOOKED AROUND REALIZING THAT I T WASN’T ALL A DREAM AZ I SAW DA DARK WALLZ OF DA CAVE. IT WASN’T ALL JUST 1 BIG BAD DREAM. I HAD REALLY DONE IT. I MURDERED MY BROTHER. I WAZ CURZED BY DA VOICE, AND MY FATHER HAD CONDEMNED ME. I NO LONGER HAD A FATHER, AND HE NO LONGER HAD A SON. I WOULD NEVER HEAR DA VOICE AGAIN.
LIFE AZ I KNEW IT WAZ NO LONGER DA SAME. 4 A SHORT MOMENT OF GRATIFICATION I WOULD BE CURZED 4 LIFE.
YEZ I THOUGHT, ‘ANGER DOEZ REZT N DA BOSOM OF A FOOL’.

Da Wanderer (tale of Cain) chap 1-3

2006-06-09T13:40:00.000-07:00

CAIN SPOKE WITH HIZ BROTHER ABEL, AND IT HAPPENED WHEN THEY WERE IN DA FIELD, THAT CAIN ROZE UP AGAINZT HIZ BROTHER ABEL AND SLEW HIM. YHWH SAID TO CAIN, ‘WHERE IZ ABEL YOUR BROTHER?’ AND HE SAID ‘I DO NOT KNOW. AM I MY BROTHERZ KEEPER?’ THEN HE SAID, ‘WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? DA VOICE OF YOUR BROTHERZ BLOOD CRIEZ OUT TO ME FROM DA GROUND! THEREFORE U R CURZED FROM DA GROUND, WHICH OPENED WIDE ITZ MOUTH 2 RECEIVE UR BROTHERZ BLOOD FROM UR HAND. WHEN U WORK DA GROUND, IT SHALL NO LONGER YIELD ITZ STRENGTH 2 U. U SHALL BECOME A FUGITIVE AND VAGABOND ON EARTH.’ CAIN SAID 2 YHWH, ‘MY PUNIZHMENT IZ 2 GREAT 4 ME 2 BEAR! BEHOLD U HAVE BANIZED ME THIZ DAY FROM DA FACE OF DA EARTH, AND I WILL BE HIDDDEN FROM UR PREZENZE. I MUZT BECOME A FUGITIVE AND A VAGABOND ON EARTH; WHOEVER FINDZ ME WILL SLAY ME!’ YHWH SAID 2 HIM ‘THERE-4 WHOEVER SLAYZ CAIN VENGEANZE SHALL BE TAKEN ON HIM SEVENFOLD’. AND YHWH SET A MARK UPON CAIN, LEZT ANY FINDING HIM SHOULD KILL HIM. AND CAIN WENT OUT FROM DA PREZENCE OF YHWH AND DWELT IN DA LAND OF NOD, ON DA EAZT OF EDEN AND CAIN KNEW HIZ WIFE; AND SHE CONCEIVED AND BARE ENOCH: AND HE BUILT A CITY AND CALLED DA NAME OF DA CITY AFTER DA NAME OF HIZ SON, ENOCH…GENEZIZ 4:8-17
CHAPTER 1
‘SOMETIMEZ I WIZH I COULD HEAR DA VOICE AGAIN. ONLY SOMETIMEZ. IM UZE 2 DA SILENCE NOW: WHEN U TRAVEL AZ I DO IT CAN B COMFORTING AT TIMEZ, AND SOMETIMEZ LONELY.
‘IM NOT SURE IF DA VOICE WOULD HELP DA LONLINEZZ OF TRAVELING. U C, I HAVE NEVER HEARD DA VOICE SINZE I HAD 2 TRAVEL, AND AZ I STATED ALREADY, IM UZE 2 IT BY NOW.
‘I CAN STILL REMEMBER DA LAZT DAY I HEARD DA VOICE AZ IF IT WAZ YEZTURDAY. IT WAZ A LONG TIME AGO: I REALY DON’T KEEP TRACK OF TIME ANYMORE. IT WOULD B 2 DEPREZZING 2 KEEP TRACK OF TIME WHEN U HAVE 2 MOVE AZ MUCH AZ I DO, NOT STAYING IN 1 PLACE 2 LONG.
‘I UZE 2 KEEP TRACK OF DA TIME AT FIRZT. PRAYING, NO, NOT REALLY PRAYING, BUT HOPING THAT EACH TIME WOULD B DIFFERENT.
I HOPED THAT THINGZ WOULD NOT CHANGE SO DRAZTICALLY AND I WOULD B ABLE 2 STAY DIZ TIME; BUT IT WAZ ALWAYZ DA SAME THING. ALTHOUGH DA LENGTH OF TIME I WOULD B AT 1 PLACE WOULD B DIFFERENT.
‘SO EVERY TIME I HAD 2 MOVE, IT TOOK AWAY A LITTLE HOPE OF DA NEXT PLACE BEING MY HOME. UNTIL I JUZT GOT 2 DA POINT WHERE I BECAME COMFORTABLE, OR AZ COMFORTABLE AZ 1 COULD B IN A SITUATION LIKE THIZ, AND ACCPETTED DA INEVITABLE; DA REALIZATION DAT I WOULD NEVER B ABLE 2 SETTLE DOWN IN 1 PLAZE.
‘ONCE I ACCEPTED DIZ FACT, I NEVER REALLY MIZZED DA PLACEZ I HAD SOUJOURNED IN DAT MUCH.
‘EVERY NOW AND AGAIN I WOULD DRIFT BACK 2 1 OF DA MANY PLACEZ I HAD LIVED: DA PLACEZ DAT WERE SO FULL OF LIFE, AND TEEMING WITH POSSIBILITIEZ B4 I ARRIVED AND SET IN MOTION THAT WHICH CAME WITH MY PREZENCE. DA DROUGHT, FAMINE, PEZTILANCE, AND FLOODING; IT WAZ ALWAYZ DA SAME, IT NEVER CHANGED
‘I MIGHT B IN A PLACE 4 A WEEK, NINE MONTHZ, AND EVEN 2 TO 3 CYCLEZ OF DA SUN. BUT EVENTUALLY IT ALWAYZ HAPPENED. JUZT LIKE A BAD DREAM THAT U WERE NOT ABLE 2 CHANGE NO MATTER WHAT U DID.
‘WITH TIME I WAZ ABLE 2 GET UZE 2 IT; EVEN AT TIMEZ WAITING AND ANTIZAPATING DA SEAZON I WOULD HAVE 2 UP AND START ON DA MOVE AGAIN. IT COULD B FUN U KNOW, A LITTLE GAME OF SORTZ. DA OBJECT WOULD B TRYING 2 GUEZZ WHEN WOULD B DA TIME, AND WHAT REGION I WOULD END UP IN NEXT. A COUPLE OF TIMEZ I HIT IT RIGHT ON DA HEAD, IT WAZ EAZY ONCE DA SIGNZ STARTED.
‘IT WAZ ALWAYZ DA SAME, 1 DAY I OR 1 OF MY FAMILY MEMBERZ WOULD GET UP 2 GO OUT 4 DA MORNING MEAL AND COME BACK A LOT LATER BECAUZE DA FOOD WAZ SCARZE. LARGE AREAZ OF CROPZ WOULD JUZT DIE, OR DA LOCUZT WOULD COME FROM OUT OF NOWHERE AND CONSUME THEM. DA WELLZ WOULD DRY UP, AND THEN WHEN I THOUGHT WE WERE GETTING RELIEF BECAUZE OF DA RAIN WHICH STARTED, I WOULD SOON REALIZE THAT IT KEEP ON COMING AND WAZNT GOING 2 STOP UNTIL ALMOZT ALL DA VEGATATION IN DA REGION WAZ DESTROYED; AND JUZT LIKE THAT IT WOULD STOP AND DA INTENZE HEAT WOULD COME AGAIN UNTIL THERE WAZ LITTLE 2 NO WATER.
‘THIZ IZ USUALLY DA TIME I KNEW IT WAZ TIME 2 MOVE ON UNTIL I COULD FIND A SPOT SUITABLE 2 SUSTAIN ME AND MY WOMAN.
U C I COULD NOT JUZT STOP ANYPLACE. I ALWAYZ HAD 2 PICK A SPOT DAT WOULD B ABLE 2 GIVE ME A LITTLE SOLACE 4 A SEASON OR 2. IF I MADE A BAD CHOIZE, WE WOULD B MOVING AZ SOON AZ WE SETTLE DOWN. SO USUALLY I PICKED A SPOT THAT LOOKED LIKE IT COULD SUSTAIN A LARGE CITY 4 GENERATIONZ UPON GENERATIONZ, AND WOULD STAY MY YEAR OR 2 THERE IF I WAZ FORTUNATE. USUALLY WHEN I LEFT, DA REGION WOULD NOT B ABLE 2 SUPPORT A SMALL FAMILY OF FIELD RATZ, BUT IT WOULD USUALLY REPAIR ITSELF 2 ITZ FORMER GLORY A WEEK OR 2 AFTER MY FAMILY AND I WOULD VACATE DA PREMIZEZ. AT LEAZT THAT IZ WHAT I WAZ TOLD THROUGH WORD OF MOUTH.
‘OUT OF ALL OF WHAT I JUZT MENTIONED, DA THING DAT BOTHERED ME DA MOZT, WAZ NO LONGER HEARING DA VOICE. I WOULD MOVE EVERY DAY SIMPLY 2 HEAR DA VOICE AGAIN. I WOULD NOT EVEN NEED 2 HEAR DA VOICE LIKE I HAD IN TIMEZ OF OLD, JUST HEAR AND THERE, ONCE AND A WHILE. HEARIND DA VOICE WAZ LIKE NOTHIG I COULD TRULY EXPLAIN. ALL I COULD SAY IZ THAT U KNEW U WERE ALIVE, TRULY ALIVE WHEN U HEARD IT. U WOULD SIT AND THINK ABOUT IT 4 DAYZ, AND B IN A STATE OF EUPHORIA, BEING BOTHERED BY NOTHING. I HAVE ALWAYZ FELT LIKE DAT WHEN I HEARD IT, EXCEPT…WELL U C, THERE WERE 2 OCCASIONZ I DID NOT FEEL DA WAY; INFACT ON THOZE 2 OCCASIONZ I DID NOT WANT 2 HEAR DA VOICE AT ALL. I DID NOT WANT 2 FEEL ITZ PREZENCE.
‘DA LAZT TIME I HEARD IT; IT BROUGHT WITH IT A GREAT SORROW DAT WOULD LAZT 4 MANY NIGHTZ. DA TIME B4 DA LAZT, I WAZ ANGRY 2 HAVE HEARD IT, WISHING I COULD HUSH IT, AZ IT DENIED ME MY HAPPINEZZ. DA LAZT TIME BRINGZ BACK SO MANY MEMORIEZ, SO MANY EMOTIONZ OF SHAME, GUILT, SORROW, AND ANGER; ANGER AT WHAT DA VOICE HAD SAID 2 ME.
‘MANY OF TIMEZ I WISHED I HAD NOT DONE IT; I WISH I COULD I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE WHAT I HAD DONE, AT WHAT I HAD DONE 2 KEEP ME RUNNING, AT WHAT I HAD DONE 2 GET SILENZE INSTEAD OF DA VOICE; DAT BEAUTIFUL SWEET VOICE, DA LOVELY, CALMING VOICE. I CAN STILL REMEMBER WHAT I HAD DONE AZ IF IT WAZZ YESTURDAY, AZ IF I HAD JUZT FINISHED WASHING DA BLOOD OF MY HANDZ A FEW MOMENTZ AGO. I OFTEN RELIVED IT AT NIGHT IN MY SLEEP. MY SLEEP THAT WAZ RARELY COMFORTABLE, THAT RARELY LAZTED THROUGH DA NIGHT. MY SLEEP HAZ TROUBLED ME SINCE DA DAY. DA DAY DA VOICE STOPPED. DA DAY I CRIED THROUGH DA NIGHT, DA DAY IN WHICH MY APPEARANCE WOULD NEVER AGAIN B AZ IT WAZ. I REMEMBER DAT PRECIOUZ DAY, DA DAY I WOULD ON MY FAMILY 4 DA LAZT TIME. DAT WAZ DA DAY THAT I CAN, AND WILL NEVER FORGET. I WILL NEVER FORGET DA LOOK OF DIZDAIN ON MY FATHERZ FACE, DA HURT IN MY MOTHERZ TEARY EYEZ. YEZ DAT IZ A DAY I WILL REMEMBER, AND REGRET 4 DA REST OF MY DAYZ. 4 DAT WAZ DA DAY EVERYTHING I KNEW WOULD CHANGE, AND NOTHING 4 ME WOULD EVER B DA SAME. DAT DAY SO LONG AGO, THOUGH I REMEMBER IT AZ IF IT WAZ YESTURDAY, DA DAY I SLEW MY BROTHER, DA DAY I SLEW ABEL.

CHAPTER 2
‘MY NAME IZ CAIN, AND 2 MY KNOWLEDGE AM DA FIRZT MAN SLAYER. A MANSLAY IZ 1 WHO HAZ TAKEN DA LIFE OF ANOTHER MAN, OR AT LEAZT DAT IZ WHAT I WAZ TAUGHT. MY FATHER, I MEAN ADAM TOLD ME DAT. THERE WAZ A TIME WHERE DA KNOWLEDGE OF SUCH THINGZ DID NOT EXIZT. THERE WAZ A TIME WHEN MY FATHER, I MEAN ADAM HAD NO KNOWLEDGE OF SUCH THINGZ. DAT IZ WHAT HE TOLD UZ.
‘HE TOLD UZ OF A TIME WHEN HE COULD NET EVEN CONCEIVE OF SUCH A THING. HE HAD SAID THERE WAZ A TIME WHEN EVEN IF 1 HAD THOUGHT OF IT, IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE 2 DO; BUT THAT WAZ A LONG TIME AGO. HE HAZ TOLD UZ OF A TIME WHEN DA LIFE OF MAN COULD NOT B TAKEN, A TIME WHERE DEATH WAZ IMPOSSIBLE 4 MAN. I LONG 4 DOZ DAYZ: WISHED IT HAD BEEN LIKE DAT ON DA DAY DA VOICE STOPPED. DA DAY I SLEW ABEL MY BROTHER. “HE TOLD US OFTEN OF A TIME WHEN 1 DID NOT HAVE 2 TILL DA GROUND 4 IT 2 PRODUCE, A TIME OF CONSTANT LEISURE. HE TALKED OFTEN OF TIMEZ IN WHICH 1 WOULD BUT GET UP AND PICK UR FOOD FROM TREEZ DAT GREW IT WITH NO PLANTING OR HARVEZTING.
‘HE OFTEN HAD A PAIN IN HIZ VOICE WHEN HE SPOKE OF THEZE THINGZ, AZ IF HE MIZZED THEM TERRIBLY. THERE WERE NIGHTZ WHEN HE WOULD TELL DA VOICE OF HIZ SORROW AND GUILT, BUT OF COURZE DA VOICE WOULD NOT MAKE THINGZ AZ THEY WERE. THEY COULD NOT BE AZ THEY WERE EVER AGAIN.
‘4 1 THING, WE KNEW THINGZ THAT WE WERE NEVER 2 KNOW. WE FELT THINGZ WE WERE NEVER 2 FEEL, LIKE DA FEELINGZ I FELT DA DAY I SLEW ABEL. DA DAY I SLEW MY BROTHER, AND DA VOICE STOPPED.
‘MY FATHER, UH ADAM WOULD TEACH UZ DA THINGZ DAT WE KNEW, AND WHAT WAZ CONSIDERED EVIL OR BAD, AND DA THINGZ DAT WOULD MAKE DA VOICE HAPPY, DA GOOD THINGZ.
‘ADAM TOLD UZ DAT DA VOICE WAZ HE WHO CREATED ALL, FROM DA BIRDZ 2 DA LIONZ, AND LL DA OTHER ANIMALZ MY FA…ADAM NAMED. ADAM TOLD UZ DAT IT WAZ HIZ JOB 2 NAME DEM, AND WHAT HE CALLED THEM SO THEY WOULD B CALLED.
‘OF ALL DA OFFENZEZ 1 COULD COMMIT AGAINZT ANOTHER ADAM TAUGHT UZ DAT DA TAKING OF A LIFE WAZ DA WORZE. HE TOLD UZ DA VOICE HIGHLY REGARED LIFE, AND DAT IF WOULD NOT GO UNPUNISHED.
‘ADAM TOLD UZ DAT DEZ WERE NOT THINGZ HE ALWAYZ KNEW, BUT DAT HE SUDDENLY KNEW DEM WHEN HE AND MOTHER HAD EATEN DAT WHICH WAZ NOT 2 B EATEN. HE SAID AT DAT MOMENT HE INSTANTLY KNEW EVERYTHING DAT WOULD PLEAZE AND DIZPLEAZE DA VOICE, AND HE KNEW AT DAT MOMENT WHAT HE HAD DONE WOULD GREATLY DIZPLEAZE DA VOICE.
‘HE TOLD US OF DA SHAME, DA GUILD AND DA PAIN HE AND MOTHER HAD FELT WHEN DA VOICE TOLD DEM THEY HAD 2 LEAVE DA GARDEN OF PERFECTION. DA GARDEN DAT THEY CALLED EDEN.
‘UNTIL DA DAY I HAD FELT DA WRATH OF DA VOICE, I COULD NOT IMAGINE DA VOICE MAKING U FEEL DAT WAY. DA VOICE HAD ALWAYZ BROUGHT WITH IT FEELINGZ OF JOY, AND HAPPINEZZ: BUT EVENTUALLY I WOULD KNOW WHAT MY FATHER, I MEAN ADAM HAD FELT, MAYBE EVEN WORZE.
‘NEVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCEZ R U 2 CAUZE PHYSICAL HARM 2 ANOTHER!’ ADAM SAID LOOKING AT HIZ 2 SONZ AND 5 DAUGHTERZ.
‘WHY?’ CAIN ASKED, LOOKING AT HIZ FATHER.
‘BECAUZE DA VOICE HAZ COMMANDED DAT LIFE IZ PRECIOUZ, AND IZ NOT W B WAZTED. U C MAN WAZ NEVER MEANT 2 DIE, BUT BECAUZE OF MY SIN, DEATH IZ IN DA WORLD. WE R NOT 2 MAKE IT EZ 4 DEATH.” ADAM SAID LOOKING AT CAIN.
‘BUT FATHER, WHAT IF HE OFFENDZ U, WHAT IF U R ANGRY AND HE DESERVEZ IT?’ CAIN ASKED WITH A VOICE DAT WAZ PAST DA POINT OF PUBERTY, A VOICE DAT HAD DA TING OF MANHOOD IN IT.
‘DA VOICE IZ DA ONLY 1 WHO DECIDEZ WHEN LIFE IZ 2 B TAKEN, NOT UZ MY SON. DA VOICE PUNISHEZ ALL, EVEN DA ANIMALZ, WHO WOULD TAKE DA LIFE OF ANOTHER MAN, UNLEZZ IT WAZ SANCTIONED BY HIM.’ ADAM ANSWERED HIZ SON.
‘BUT WHO IZ DA VOICE 2 DECIDE WHEN LIFE SHOULD B TAKEN. HE DOEZ NOT DWELL WITH MAN. WE SHOULD B ABLE 2 MAKE OUR OWN CHOICEZ.’ CAIN SAID A LITTLE DEFIANTLY.
‘U HEARD WHAT FATHER SAID!’ RETORTED ABEL. ‘DA VOICE IZ HE WHO HAZ CREATED ALL, THUZ HE AND ONLY HE HAZ DA RIGHT 2 DECIDE WHEN LIFE SHOULD BE TAKEN SINZE HE GAVE IT 2 BEGIN WITH.’ ABEL SAID 2 HIZ BROTHER.
CAIN EYED HIZ BROTHER AND THEN FORCED A SMILE. ‘U R RIGHT BROTHER. I AM SORRY 2 QUESTION U FATHER.’ CAIN SAID SMILING; BUT THIZ DID NOT MAKE ADAM AT EAZE. HE OFTEN SAW DA WAY CAIN LOOKED AT ABLE WHEN ABEL WAZN’T LOOKING. HE REMEMBER HOW ROUGH CAIN WAZ TOWARDZ ABEL WHEN THEY PLAYED, WHICH ALWAYZ LEFT ADAM A LITTLE UN’EZ.
‘YEZ, ADAM HAD ALWAYZ TAUGHT UZ ABOUT DA TAKING OF LIFE, PHYSICALLY HARMING ANOTHER. HE TOLD UZ, ‘ONLY 2 PROTECT ONSELF OR 1’Z FAMILY SHOULD U RESULT IN HARMING ANOTHER.’ HE SAID DA VOICE WOULD GREATLY PUNIZH DA MAN WHO WOULD HURT HIZ FELLOW MAN; BUT DAT HAD BEEN OF LITTLE CONSEQUENZE ON DAT DAY WITH MY BROTHER, DA DAY I COULD NOT CONTROL MY ANGER.
‘I WAZ DA FIRST 1 2 BREAK DAT RULE, I DISOBEYED DA VOICE, BUT SO HAD MY FATHER, UH ADAM. DID HE NOT EAT DAT, WHICH HE WAZ NOT 2 EAT? DID HE NOT DIZOBEY DA VOICE LIKE I HAD? DEN y DID HE ACT AZ HE DID 2 ME DAT DAY? SHOULD HE HAVE NOT BEEN SYMPATHETIC 2 MY CAUZE? SHOULD HE OF ALL PEOPLE KNOW WHAT I WAZ GOING THROUGH? BUT OH 2 DA CONTRARY, ALL HE CARED ABOUT WAZ HIZ DEAD SON, INSTEAD OF HIZ LIVE SON!
‘I HAVE NEVER SEEN MY FA..ADAM DAT ANGRY B4, I HAVE SEEN HIM EXTREMELY SAD WHEN PRAYING 2 DA VOICE, AND EXTREMELY HAPPY AFTER HEARING DA VOICE; BUT I HAVE NEVER SEEN HIM DAT ANGRY. DA LOOK IN HIZ EYEZ, I WILL NEVER FORGET DAT LOOK.
‘I DO BELIEVE DAT HE WOULD HAVE SLAYED ME HIMSELF IF NOT 4 MY CURZE.
‘WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT, MAYBE IT WASN’T DA CURZE. 4 HIZ LOVE 4 UZ, MY BROTHER AND I, HAD 2 B AZ STRONG AZ DA ANGER AND HATE HE FELT 4 ME ON DAT DAY. MAYBE WITH DA MIXED EMOTIONZ HE WAZ FEELING HE COULD DO NOTHING, EXCEPT DAT WHICH HE DID, CONDEMNATION!
‘HE CONDEMNED ME WITH SUCH CONVICTION, WITH SUCH ANGER, WITH SUCH HATE; I CAN STILL FEEL DA RAW EMOTIONZ OF DAT DAY. I CAN STILL REMEMBER DA HURT I FELT AZ DA TEARZ SWELLED UP IN MY EYEZ. I CAN STILL REMEMBER HOW I FELT AZ MOTHER COULD NOT EVEN LOOK AT ME, SHE JUST LEANED INTO ADAM, HER FACE IN HIZ CHEZT CRYING.
YEZ, I CAN REMEMBER HOW HE CONDEMNED ME AZ IF I WERE NOT EVER BORN OF HIZ LOINZ. AZ IF HE HAD NEVER HUGGED AND PLAYED WITH ME. HE SPOKE 2 ME AZ IF HE HAD NEVER TOLD ME OF DA FIRZT TIME HE SAW MOTHER AND HOW HE INSTANTLY FEEL IN LOVE WITH HER. HOW HE KNEW FROM DA FIRZT DA SHE WAZ MADE 4 HIM, FROM HIM. HE SAID HE COULD FEEL IT EVEN BE4 DA VOICE TOLD HIM SHE WAZ MADE FROM HIZ RIB.
‘HE SPOKE AZ IF I WAZ NOT HIZ NOT IN DA GATHERINGZ OF HIZ CHILDREN WHEN HE TOLD UZ DAT DA VOICE HAZ COMMANDED HIM DAT A MAN WAZ 2 LEAVE HIZ FATHER AND MOTHER AND CLEAVE UNTO HIZ WIFE.
‘DAT LOOK IN HIZ EYEZ I CAN REMEMBER IT. I CAN STILL REMEMBER DA FIRE DAT THEY HAD, DAT LOOK OF ANGER MIXED WITH DIZGUZT, OF LOATHING AND CONTEMPT.
‘I CAN STILL HEAR HIZ VOICE WHEN HE TOLD ME ‘U R NOT MY SON. MY SON WOULD NEVER DA SUCH A THING.’ I CHOKED ON MY WORDZ AZ DA STING OF DOZ WORDZ SUNK IN. ‘FATHER, FATHER!’ IC CRIED, BUT HIZ CONTEMPT DIDN’T CHANGE, DOZ HURTFUL WORDZ DIDN’T STOP.
‘DID U THINK U WOULD GET AWAY WITH DIZ? DID U THINK DA VOICE WOULD LET U GO UNPUNISHED? DID U ENJOY IT?’ ADAM SAID 2 ME WITH DA FIRE STILL IN HIZ EYEZ. ‘YEZ U ENJOYED IT. I HAVE ALWAYZ SEEN DA WAY U LOOKED AT UR BROTHER. I HAVE ALWAYZ PAID ATTENTION 2 DA WAY U INTENTIONALLY PUSHED HIM, AND HIT HIM WITH ROCKZ, AND THEN FEIGNED IT WAZ AN ACCIDENT YEZ, I HAVE ALWAYZ NOTICED, THOUGH I WOULD NEVER HAVE IMAGINED U WOULD EVER DO A THINK LIKE THIZ.’ ADAM SAID WHILE SLOWLY SHAKING HIZ HEAD. ‘NO I WOULD NEVER HAVE THOUGHT U WOULD DO A THING LIKE THIZ.’
‘FATHER! FATHER! I CRIED, BUT HE WOULD HEAR NOTHING FROM ME. HE JUST KEPT ON LOOKING AT ME WITH THOZE EYEZ, THOZE HATEFUL EYEZ.
‘I FELT AZ IF I WOULD BUZT INTO FLAMEZ ANY MINUTE. ‘ALL THIZ OVER WHAT, AN OFFERING 2 DA VOICE? DAT WAZ IT WAZN’T IT? YEZ IT WAZ, I REMEMBER DA WAY U LOOKED AT HIM WHEN DA VOICE DIDN’T ACCEPT UR OFFERING.’ HE SAID AT ME.
‘HE WAZ RIGHT, IT WAZ OVER DA OFFERING DAT DA VOICE DIDN’T ACCEPT; OVER DA OFFERING OF MY BROTHER ABEL DAT DA VOICE DID ACCEPT.
‘I REMEMBER THINKING WHY WOULD DA VOICE NOT ACCEPT MY OFFERING AND ACCEPT HIZ? WAZ NOT MINE AFTER ALL DAT WHICH WE WERE ABLE 2 EAT? WAZ IT NOT GOOD? WAZ IT NOT BETTE HEN MY BROTHERZ? I REMEMBER THINKING DAT HAD NOT MY BROTHER BROUGHT AN OFFERING OF THINGZ DAT WAZ NOT EVEN GOOD ENOUGH 4 UZ 2 EAT.
‘HE WAZ SO HAPPY. DA VOICE HAD ACCEPTED HIZ OFFERING AND HE WAZ SO PROUD WHEN HE TOLD FATHER, AND I HAD 2 TELL HIM DAT MY OFFERING WAZ NOT ACCEPTED. THIZ MADE ME EVEN MORE ANGRY.
‘HE CAME 2 ME, ABEL, AND SAID ‘MAYBE NEXT TIME U OFFER U COULD OFFER UP OF UR BETTER STOCK, U KNOW DA STUFF U PUT AWAY 4 CONSUMPTION, DAT IZ WHAT I DID. I OFFERED DA VOICE DA BEZT OF THAT WHICH I HAD, U KNOW DA BIGGEZT AND STRONGEZT AZ FATHER INSTRUCTED UZ 2.
‘THIZ INFURIATED ME EVEN MORE SO. CAN U IMAGINE MY BABY BROTHER GIVEN ME ADVICE? SUGGEZTING DAT I SHOULD OFFER DA BEZT OF WHAT I HARVEZTED.
‘EVEN WHEN FATHER, I MEAN ADAM SUGGEZTED DAT, I FELT IT WAZ RIDICULOUZ.
‘WE TOIL DA LAND BECUZ OF DA CURZE DAT HE PUT ON MANKIND BECUZ OF ADAM, AND HE EXPECTED UZ 2 OFFER UP 2 HIM DA BEZT OF DA LOT, WHAT SENZE WOULD DAT MAKE? IF HE WANTED DA BEZT Y WOULD HE NOT JUZT MAKE HIMSELF SOMETHING? AFTER ALL ADAM HAD SAID DAT HE DOEZN’T EVEN EAT IT, HE JUST WANTZ UZ 2 OFFER 2 SHOW APPRECIATION.
‘APPRECIATION! APPRECIATION 4 WHAT? DID HE GO OUT THERE AND TOIL DA GROUND? DID HE GO OUT THERE AND MOVE ROCKZ AND CHAZE DA BEZT AWAY? DID HE EVEN HELP PICK DA FRUITZ AFTER THEY GREW? NO, OF COURZE NOT. SHOULD DA VOICE NOT BE HAPPY DAT I GAVE SOMETHING AT ALL? WHAT DID HE DO DAT I SHOULD BE APPRECIATIVE?
‘IT WAZ MY WORK, DA RAIN AND SUN DAT SHINEZ THAT BROUGHT FOURTH MY HARVEZT OR SO I THOUGHT.
‘BUT AZ I MOVE FROM PLACE 2 PLACE NOW BECUZ OF DROUGHT, AND FLOODING; AZ I FIGHT HORDEZ OF LOCOUZT, AND DA CROPZ DIE SUDDENLY, I NOW UNDERSTAND MY BROTHER. I UNDERSTAND WHAT ADAM HAD TOLD UZ ABOUT DA VOICE MAKING SURE THINGZ RUN IN ORDER.
‘BUT BACK THEN I DID NOT COMPREHEND DEZ THINGZ, I WAZ JUZT ANGRY. I WAZ ANGRY AT DA VOICE 4 NOT ACCEPTING MY OFFERING, AND ANGRY AT ABEL BECUZ DA VOICE DID ACCEPT HIZ.
‘I WAZ ANGRY AT MYSELF 4 EVEN WASTING MY TIME AND OFFERING SOMETHING UP AT ALL. IN MY OLD AGE I HAVE REALIZED DAT, DAT IZ WHAT I DID; I WAZTED MY TIME.
‘U C IN MY TRAVELZ I HAVE REALIZED FROM DA STORIEZ DAT I HAVE HEARD AND DA LESSONZ DAT MY FA..ADAM TAUGHT, DAT DA VOICE IZ VERY PECULIAR ABOUT THINGZ. DA VOICE IXZ A STICKLER 4 DETAILZ; AND IF U DO NOT DO IT EXACTLY LIKE HE WANTZ HE WILL NOT ACCEPT IT.
‘BUT IN MY YOUNG AGE I CAN REMEMBER LAYING ON A ROCK JUZT GARING AT HIM, DIVERTING MY EYE WHEN I THOUGHT MY FA..ADAM WAZ LOOKING. I WAZ SURE HE HAD CAUGHT ME ONCE OF TWICE LOOKING AT ABEL DAT WAY.
‘THERE WAZ A CELEBRATION DAT NIGHT OVER DA VOICE ACCEPTING ABEL’Z OFFERING. WHAT WAZ DA BIG DEAL, DA VOICE ACCEPTED SOME DUZTY SHEEP; BESIDEZ CLOTHING WHAT WERE THEY GOOD 4 ANYWAY?
‘I WAZ VERY ANGRY DAT NIGHT AT EVERYBODY. IT WAZN’T ENOUGH ANGER 4 ME 2 DO WHAT I DID, NO NOT YET. DAT THOUGHT, DECISION CAME AFTER DA VOICE HAD SPOKEN 2 ME DAT NIGHT.
‘I WAZ OUTSIDE WANDERING, TIRED OF DA FESTIVITIEZ WHEN DA VOICE SPOKE WITHOUT WARNING AZ IT USUALLY DOEZ. ‘Y R U ANGRY CAIN?’ I WAZ 2 ANGRY 2 ANSWER. ‘WHY IZ UR FACE FALLEN?’ AZ DA VOICE WENT ON I BECAME EVEN MORE ANGRY. ‘IF U DO WELL SHALL U NOT BE ACCEPTED?’ DA VOICE SAID 2 ME. I DIDN’T ANSWER, I DIDN’T WANT 2 ANSWER. ALL I WANTED WAZ SILENCE, SILENCE FROM ADAM, SILENCE FROM ABEL, AND MOZT OF ALL SILENCE FROM DA VOICE.
‘BE CAREFUL WHAT U WISH 4 HUH!
‘BUT IF U DON’T DO WELL, SIN CROUCHEZ AT DA DOOR, AND 2 U SHALL ITZ DESIREZ B!’ SAID DA VOICE.
‘I THOUGHT WHAT DOEZ HE MEAN SIN CROUCHEZ AT DA DOOR? THIZ MAKEZ NO SENZE; BUT IN MY ANGER I COULD NOT C DA MESSAGE. I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND DAT MY ANGER, AND MY LACK OF DOING WELL CREATED DA DECIZION 2 TAKE DA LIFE OF MY BROTHER ABEL. I COULD NOT C PAZT THAT MOMENT.
‘I COULDN’T C DA WARNING 2 CEASE FROM WHAT WAZ BREWING IN MY MIND. I COULD NOT C DA WARNING OF WHAT WAZ COMING NEXT FROM DA VOICE. ‘YET U MAY RULE OVER IT.’ DAT WAZ DA VOICE FORETELLING ME DAT HE WOULD TAKE NO EXCUZE 4 DA THING I WAZ PLOTTING. HE SAID DAT I MAY RULE OVER IT, MY ANGER, MY THOUGHTZ, MY ACTIONZ. IN DA END IT WAZ A CONSCIOUZ CHOICE AND DA VOICE HAD WARNED ME DAT HE WOULD TAKE NO EXCUZEZ.
‘ I DID NOT HEED DA WARNING, I DIDN’T CARE ABOUT DA WARNING. ALL I WANTED WAZ 2 FEEL BETTER. IT WAZ DAT SWEET JOY DAT COMEZ WITH REVENGE DAT I DESIRED. I WANTED DAT FLEETING MOMENT OF PURE UNADULTERATED BLIZZ. 4 DAT IZ WHAT IT IZ, FLEETING, THERE BUT 4 A MOMENT, AND A SHORT MOMENT AT DAT. BUT DID I THINK ABOUT DAT THEN? DID I EVEN CARE ABOUT DAT THEN?
‘NO!-ALL I WANTED WAZ 2 FEEL BETTER. I WANTED 2 PUNIZH MY BROTHER, AND MOZT OF ALL I WANTED 2 SHOW DA VOICE. I WANTED 2 DO SOMETHING 2 ANGER HIM AZ HE HAD ANGERED ME AND ABEL WOULD BE DA MEANZ IN WHICH I WOULD ACCOMPLISH THIZ.
‘IF U WOULD HAVE DONE AZ I INSTRUCTED U, DA VOICE WOULD HAVE ACCEPTED UR OFFERING ALSO!’ ADAM SAID STILL GLARING AT ME. HE NEVER TOOK DOZ FIERY EYEZ OFFN OF ME, NOT 4 A SECOND. I WISHED HE HAD SO I MIGHT HAVE HAD A SECOND OF RELIEF. SO I MIGHT HAVE NOT FELT DA GUILT, AND DEEP SORROW; EVEN IF IT WAZ JUZT 4 A SECOND. NO, HE BURNT INTO MY SOUL WITH DOZ HATEFUL EYEZ AND TORE ME APART PIECE-BY-PIECE, WITH EVERY SYLLABLE, EVERY WORD, AND EVERY SENTENCE.
‘FATHER! FATHER!’ I PLEADED.
‘NO! I AM NOT UR FATHER, AND U R NOT MY SON!’ ADAM SAID 2 ME AZ I PLEADED. ‘FATHER PLEAZE NO!
‘I AM NOT UR FATHER! NEVER CALL ME DAT AGAIN, CAIN! U R DEAD 2 ME. U R A BLOODY MAN AND UR DESCENDANTZ SHALL B BLOODY MEN ALSO. THEY SHALL FOLLOW IN DA FOOTSTEPZ OF THEIR FATHER. U R NOT OF MY SEED. AZ OF DIZ MOMENT I HAVE NO SONZ. 1 IZ DEAD AND 1 IZ AS IF HE HAD NEVER BEEN!
‘I STOOD THERE IN UTTER SHOCK, CONFUSED, ANGRY, AND HURT. I STOOD AND WATCHED DIZ MAN I CALLED FATHER DISOWN ME. DIZ MAN WHOM I HAD SAT AND LISTEN 2 AZ HE WOULD EXPLAIN 2 ALL OF UZ WHAT TRANSPIRED AFTER HE AND MOTHER HAD EATEN DAT WHICH SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN EATEN:

‘MY SONZ AND DAUGHTERZ OUR LIVEZ R DA WAY THEY R BECUZ OF MY ACTIONZ, AND UR MOTHERZ ACTIONZ.’ ADAM SAID LOOKING AT HIZ CHILDREN SITTING AROUND HIM AZ HE TOLD DEM OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED.
ADAM LOOKED AT DA FIRE DAT SAT IN DA MIDDLE OF DA CIRCLE, ‘WE WERE NOT MEANT 2 LIVE AZ WE LIVE NOW, MY CHILDREN. DA VOICE CURZED UZ SINCE EATING DAT WHICH SHOULD HAVE NOT BEEN EATEN.
‘WITH DEATH.” SAID CAINENAH HIZ ELDEZT DAUGHTER.
‘YEZ DAUGHTER, WITH DEATH.’ ADAM ANSWERED. ‘BUT THAT WAZ NOT DA FULL EXTENT OF DA CURZE.’ HE SAID.
‘WHAT ELZE WAZ THERE?’ YAHVE ASKED.
‘WELL DAUGHTER THERE WAZ A SET OF CURZEZ 4 ALL DOZ DAT TRANZGREZZED AGAINZT DA VOICE.’ ADAM SAID GRINNING AT HIZ 5 DAUGHTERZ AND 2 SONZ.
‘WHAT WERE THEY?” ABEL ASKED.
‘I KNOW FATHER.’ CAIN SAID WAVING HIZ HAND EXCITEDLY BACK AND FOURTH.
‘OK SON, TELL UR BROTHER WHAT THEY WERE.’ ADAM SAID FEELING A SENZE OF PRIDE TOWARDZ HIZ FIRST BORN.
‘WELL, DA SERPENT WAZ CURZED 2 CRAWL UPON HIZ BELLY DA REZT OF HIZ DAYZ FATHER; ALSO DA CHILDREN OF DA SERPENT WOULD NOT GET ALONG WITH U AND MOTHERZ CHILDREN FATHER.’ CAIN SAID LOOKING AT HIZ FATHER.
‘CORRECT MY SON. WHAT ELZE?’ ADAM ASKED..
‘I KNOW!” NUSHIA SAID.
‘YEZ MY DAUGHTER U MAY ANSWER.’ ADAM SAID SMILING AT HER.
‘WELL FATHER’ SHE SAID STANDING UP. BEING AZ SHE WAZ DA YOUNGEZT OF DA CHILDREN SHE STOOD SO DAT EVERY 1 WOULD PAY HER ATTENTION. SOMETHING SHE RARELY GOT FROM HER SIBLINGZ. ‘WHEN WOMEN HAVE CHILDREN IT SHALL CAUZE THEM PAIN AND DIZCOMFIT, AND THEY MUZT LISTEN 2 THEIR MAN.’ SHE SAID SMILING SHOWING ALL HER TEETH AZ SHE FINISHED AND SAT DOWN.
‘DAT WAZ EXCELLENT SWEETHEART.’ ADAM SAID 2 HER FEELING WARM ALL OVER. WARM FROM DA LOVE HE FELT 4 HIZ CHILDREN. ‘IZ THERE ANYTHING ELSE?’ ADAM ASKED.
‘I THINK I KNOW DA REZT.’ MELEE SAID. MELEE WAZ DA SECOND ELDEZT DAUGHTER.
‘I DO 2!’ SAID MALEE HER TWIN.
‘OK DAUGHTERZ U MAY FINIZH.’ ADAM SAID KNOWING THEY WOULD ANSWER TOGETHER, SOMETHING THEY DID QUITE OFTEN. IT WAZ AZ IF THEY SHARED DA SAME BRAIN. IT WAZ A SHOCKING EXPERIENCE 2 ADAM AND EVE WHEN THEY WERE BORN AND INSTEAD OF JUST 1 CHILD COMING OUT, AZ THEY WERE USED 2, ANOTHER CHILD FOLLOWED.
‘WELL,’ THEY STARTED IN UNISONZ, ‘MAN HAZ 2 WORK 2 EAT, AND DA GROUND WILL NOT YIELD ITZ STRENGTH IF MAN DOEZN’T WORK ON IT. AND SINZE,’ THEY CONTINUED, ‘MAN WAZ MADE FROM DIRT WE WILL 1 DAY DIE AND GO BACK IN 2 IT.”
‘YEZ! YEZ, MY SWEET WONDERFUL BLEZZINGZ FROM DA VOICE.’ ADAM SAID BEAMING AT ALL HIZ CHILDREN.

‘YEZ DAT WAZ DA MAN HE WAZ THEN, BUT NOW HE WAZ A DIFFERENT PERSON; OR AT LEAZT 2 ME. HE WAZ NO LONGER DA PASSIONATE, COMPASSIONATE, LOVING FATHER. HE WAS NOT DA 1 TELLING, AND RETELLING DA STORIEZ OF DA BEGINNING AND WHAT HE HAD BEEN THROUGH. HE WAZ NOT LOOKING DOWN AT HIZ CHILDREN WITH MORE LOVE IN HIZ EYEZ THEN U EVER THOUGHT A PERSON WAZ CAPABLE OF.
‘NO, NOW ALL HE WAZ 2 ME WAZ A MAN THAT HATED ME. HE WAZ A MAN WHO COULD NOT STAND DA SIGHT OF ME.
‘THIZ WAZ MORE THEN I COULD HANDLE; THIZ, AFTER WHAT I WAZ JUZT TOLD, AND AFTER BEING CURZED BY DA VOICE. IT WAZ MORE THEN I COULD HANDLE. I WANTED 2 B DA FIRZT PERZON 2 JUZT DIE; 4 NO OTHER REAZON THEN DA FACT I NO LONGER WISHED 2 LIVE, BUT IT DIDN’T HAPPEN. WHEN I OPEN MY EYEZ, THROUGH DA WATERY IMAGE I COULD STILL C DA MAN WHO WAZ ONCE KNOWN AZ ‘FATHER’ STILL SATING AT ME WITH THOZE HATEFUL EYEZ.
‘I STOOD THERE STARING AT HIM TRYING 2 FIND A SPARK OF HOPE. HOPE DAT WOULD TELL ME DAT HE DID NOT MEAN WHAT HE JUST SAID. DAT LIKE ME HE WAZ JUZT ANGRY. I LOOKED 4 HOPE DAT MAYBE WHEN HE CALMED DOWN HE WOULD STILL B MY FATHER AND NOT ADAM.
‘DAT HOPE NEVER CAME; AND WHEN HE TURNED HIZ BACK CLENCHING MOTHER AND WALKED BACK TOWARDZ OUR VILLAGE, NOT EVEN TURNING 2 MY SOBZ I REALIZED IT WAZ NO LONGER ‘OUR’ VILLAGE. THERE WAZ NO LONGER ANY ‘OURZ’ JUZT ‘ME’!

CHAPTER 3
‘I SAT OUTSIDE DA VILLAGE, CAINENAH AND I. THEY HAD SENT HER OUT 2 ME, CAINENAH MY WIFE.
‘WE SAT OUT THERE CRYING, STARING AT WHAT UZE 2 B OUR FAMILY, I STARED AT CAINENAH AZ I HELD HER IN MY ARMZ, LOOKING AT HER HURT AZ SHE SOBBED KNOWING DAT SHE HAD 2 LEAVE DA FAMILY.
‘I WAZ SHOCKED DAT SHE CAME, SHOCK DAT SHE WOULD STILL LOVE ME AND B WITH ME; AFTER ALL ABEL WAZ HER BROTHER ALSO. ADAM HAD ALWAYZ TOLD ABEL AND I DAT DA LOVE A WOMAN HAZ 4 HER MAN TRANSCENDZ ALL. THIZ I NOW KNEW FIRSTHAND AZ SHE HELD ME CLOZE.
‘EVEN IF SHE DID NOT WANT 2 CUM I KNOW FATHE...ADAM WOULD HAVE SENT HER ANYWAY. FATHER ALWAYZ SAID DAT NOTHING SHOULD CUM BETWEEN A MAN AND HIZ WOMAN.
‘I SAT THERE CONFUSED, HURT, AND NUMB ALL OVER. DA DAYZ EVENTZ HAD BEEN 2 MUCH 4 ANY 1 2 BEAR. IT WAZ AZ IF I HAD A GREAT WEIGHT ON MY BACK DAT INCREASED AZ TIME PASSED.
‘I THOUGHT OF WHAT JUST TRANZPIRED BETWEEN ADAM AND I. BEING EXCOMMUNICATED FROM EVERYTHING AND EVERY-1 I KNEW. CAN U IMAGINE HAVING UR FATHER TELL U, U WERE AZ 1 DAT HAD NEVER BEEN?
‘DIZ ON TOP OF WHAT I WAZ TOLD BY DA VOICE. HAVING BEEN CURZED BY DA VOICE. DA CURZE! WITH WHAT HAD JUZT HAPPENED I ALMOZT FORGOT ABOUT DA CURZE, WHAT DA VOICE HAD SAID UNTO ME.
‘NOW DAT I THOUGHT ABOUT IT, IT ADDED EVEN MORE WEIGHT 2 DA BURDEN I WAZ ALREADY CARRYING. IT MADE MY GRIM REALITY EVEN MORE SO.
‘Y COULDN’T I HAVE CONTROLLED MY ANGER? Y WAZ I SUCH A FOOL? ITZ ALMOZT AZ IF ANGER REZT IN DA BOSOM OF A FOOL, IT HAD 2.
‘ITZ LIKE U CAN’T THINK STRAIGHT, LIKE NOTHING IZ CLEAR 2 U. DA ONLY THING U THINK ABOUT IZ DA CAUZE OF UR ANGER, AND DOING ANYTHING IN UR POWER 2 RID YOURSELF OF IT; SIMPLY 2 GET BACK AT WHATEVER OR WHOEVER IZ CAUZING U DA DISTREZZ.
‘YEZ, THAT IZ HOW IT WAZ, THATZ EXACTLY HOW I FELT.
‘MY ANGER IZ WHAT CAUZED DIZ, WHAT HAD ME DO DA THING DAT HAD DA VOICE CURZE ME. DAT HAD MY FATHER CURZE ME. I WAZ CURZED BY EVERYTHING AND BY EVERY 1 I CARED 4.
‘THOUGH SHE LOVED ME, I KNEW EVEN MY WIFE CAINENAH CURZED ME. I COULD C DOZ 1ST COUPLE OF WEEKZ HOW SHE LOOKED AT ME. SHE DID NOT LOOK AT ME AZ SHE UZE 2. THERE WAZ FEAR WITH A SLIGHT TOUCH OF DIZDAIN, I COULD TELL.
‘DIZDAIN BECAUZE I MURDERED HER BROTHER, OUR BROTHER. DIZDAIN BECAUZE SHE COULD NO LONGER HUG HER MOTHER, TALK 2 HER FATHER, AND PLAY WITH HER SIBLINGZ. DISDAIN BECUZ WE WERE FORCED 2 MOVE FROM PLAZE 2 PLAZE.
‘STABILITY IZ A GREAT BLEZZING! SETTING ROOTZ IZ WHAT A FAMILY DOEZ 2 SAY DAT THEY WERE HERE. WAKING UP AND SEEING DA TREE UR CHILD CLIMBED ON WHEN HE WAZ YOUNGER, AND WAZ SO EXCITED HE FELL OFF OF AND CRIED UNTIL HIZ MOTHER CAREZZED HIM IZ TRULY A BLEZZING. SIMPLY KNOWING DAT I HAVE A FUTURE IN THIZ PLAZE IZ A BLEZZING, A BLEZZING DAT I TOOK FROM HER.
‘I DID NOT KNOW ON DAT DAY I WAZ CURZED DAT I WOULD NOT BE PRIVY 2 DEZ BLEZZINGZ. I DID NOT KNOW DA FULL SCOPE, DA FULL HORROR OF DOZ WORDZ DA VOICE HAD SAID 2 ME.

‘CAIN, WHERE IZ UR BROTHER ABEL?’ DA VOICE ASKED.
‘I DO NOT KNOW!’ CAIN SAID SOUNDING AZ IF DA QUEZTION ANNOYED HIM. “AM I MY BROTHERZ KEEPER?’
‘WHAT HAZT THOU DONE?’ DA VOICE ASKED. ‘DA VOICE OF UR BROTHERZ BLOOD CRIEZ FROM DA GROUND.’ AT DAT CAIN FELT UNEAZY, KNOWING DAT DA VOICE KNEW. Y WAZ HE SURPRISED AT THIZ? HIZ FATHER HAD TOLD HIM DAT DA VOICE WAZ ALL KNOWING AND ALL SEEING.
DA VOICE WENT ON, ‘AND NOW CURZED U R FROM DA EARTH, WHICH HAZ OPENED HER MOUTH 2 RECEIVE THY BROTHER’Z BLOOD FROM THY HAND. WHEN U TILL DA GROUND IT SHALL NOT HENCEFORTH YIELD 2 U ITZ STRENGTH.’ CAIN THOUGHT ABOUT DA IMPLICATIONZ OF DIZ. TILLING DA GROUND WAZ ALL HE KNEW HOW 2 DO. HE KNEW FROM WHAT HIZ FATHER HAD TOLD HIM DAT DA GROUND WAZ ALREADY CURZED AFTER THEY HAD EATEN DAT WHICH THEY SHOULD NOT HAVE EATEN. NOW DAT IT WAZ CURZED AGAIN HE WONDERED HOW WOULD HE SURVIVE. THEN HE THOUGHT, ‘WELL MAY-B DA FAMILY WILL SHARE DAT WHICH DAY GREW. WITH DA COMBINE EFFORTZ OF THEIR SHARE AND MINE MY FAMILY AND I SHOULD B ABLE 2 MAKE IT.
‘DA VOICE CONTINUED BREAKING HIZ TRAIN OF THOUGHT, ‘A FUGITIVE AND VEGABOND SHALL U B ON DA EARTH.
‘CAIN WINCHED AT THIZ, HE WOULD HAVE 2 LEAVE HIZ FAMILY, AND TACKLE DA GROUND, DAT 4 HIM WAZ 2-FOLD CURZED, ALONE. HE NO LONGER HAD DA SECURITY OF HIZ FAMILY. HE KNEW DAT HIZ FAMILY WOULD GROW AND SPREAD OUT, AND DAT ANY OF DEM MIGHT REMEMBER OF DA TALE OF DA 1 DAT SLEW HIZ BROTHER AND WANT REVENGE.
CAIN CRIED 2 DA VOICE, ‘MY PUNIZHMENT IZ GREATED THAN I CAN BEAR. BEHOLD, THOU HAZT DRIVEN ME OUT DIZ DAY FROM DA FACE OF DA EARTH; AND FROM THY FACE I SHALL B HID.’ CAIN INSTINCTIVELY KNEW DAT DA VOICE WOULD NOT DEAL WITH HIM AZ HE HAD DONE B-4. HIZ FATHER HAD EXPREZZLY EXPLAINED HOW DA VOICE FELT ABOUT DA SLAYING OF A MAN.
HE CONTINUED, ‘AND I SHALL BE A FUGITIVE AND A VEGABOND IN DA EARTH; AND IT SHALL CUM 2 PAZZ DAT ANY 1 DAT FINDZ ME SHALL SLAY ME!’ HE FELL 2 HIZ KNEEZ LOOKING UP 2 DA HEAVENZ.
‘THERE 4 WHOEVER SLAYZ CAIN, VENGEANCE SHALL BE TAKEN ON HIM 7-FOLD.’ DA VOICE PROCLAIMED. AT DAT CAIN FELT A LITTLE FUNNY, DIFFERENT SOMEHOW. HE WALKED OVER 2 A SMALL POOL OF WATER AND LOOKED INTO IT.
HE JUMPED AT WHAT HE SAW, LOOKING AROUND TRYING 2 FIND DA FACE WHOZE REFLECTION HE JUZT SAW. WHEN HE SAW NO 1 HE LOOKED BACK IN DA WATER LOOKING AT HIZ NEW APPAEARANC. ‘SO THIZ IZ HOW EVERY 1 WILL KNOW WHO I AM’ HE THOUGHT.
WITH DAT HE FELT A SMALL SIGH OF RELIEF AND HEADED BACK 2 DA VILLAGE UNAWARE DAT DA VOICE WOULD EXPLAIN 2 HIZ FATHER WHAT HAD HAPPENED. HE WAZ UNAWARE DAT HE WOULD NOT HAE A WARM RECEPTION WHEN HE GOT HOME. HE WAZ UNAWARE HOW DIFFERENT HIZ LIFE WOULD B FROM DAT DAY ON.